Day 48 - Relationships

My 'Day 47' blog post is in Slovene.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to meet/talk to my friends and people I know out of fear that I will lose the help/attention/validation/consolation from them if I do not and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that they will start to resent me. I realize that I fear not being in contact with my friends and people I know because I am afraid of being with myself alone and taking complete self responsibility for myself and so I use my friends and people I know to run away from myself and try to get comfort, safety, help and support from them, instead of giving this to myself. When and as I see myself wanting to meet with friends and people I know out of a wish/want/desire to get attention/validation/comfort/safety/help and support, instead of writing out my fears/desires and applying self-forgiveness and self-correction - I stop and breathe. I commit myself to remove all wishes/wants/desires to run away from myself by meeting/talking to my friends and people I know in order to get comfort from them, by applying self-forgiveness and directing myself in breath and not allowing fears/emotions to move me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel guilty and to blame myself for how I behaved in my relationship with my ex-girlfriend and because of this believe that I owe to support her and also I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to redeem myself by helping/meeting with/talking with her whenever she asks me to and also I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to do her favors in order to ensure myself help/attention/validation from her in the future in case if I need it. I realize that I am with this trying to get the feeling of safety through using others instead of taking complete responsibility for myself, also I realize that when I interact and build my relationships with others out of fear/emotions/desires, I only consider myself and my self interest and so I create/allow abuse, therefore I commit myself to write out and self-forgive all points where I interact with my ex-girlfriend or others out of fear/emotions/self-interest and direct myself in breath to create relationships based on common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with anger and to feel controlled/limited whenever my partner reacts to the point of me talking/meeting with my ex-girlfriend and/or prohibits me to talk/meet with her or any other of my friends or people I know. I realize and understand that I react with anger and feeling of control because I believe that I have the right to talk to/meet with whomever I want while not considering the point that my partner reacts this way because she doesn't trust me that I will stand and not fall for my emotions/feelings, which is a consequence of me doing this in the past. I realize that me reacting to this and the fact that my partner does not trust me will not change anything and that I cannot make or convince anyone to trust me. Therefore I commit myself to walk my process of self-correction and stand through time in common sense and what is best for all by not allowing myself to be directed by my emotions/feelings and so stabilize myself to always be here in the breath and so my surroundings will also become more stable.

Commitment and agreement with myself and my partner

I am writing this commitment as an agreement with myself to walk the process of birthing myself as Life and aligning myself to what is best for all, through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, together with Hilda as my partner and to not allow any back-doors that would break this agreement with myself and my partner.
When and as I see myself looking for back-doors to not stand by my agreement with myself and my partner - I stop and breath. I commit myself to immediately remove all points of looking for back-doors with self-forgiveness and self-correction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear to make an agreement with my partner because I fear that the past will repeat itself and out of fear that my partner will want to control me. When and as I see myself fearing of my partner wanting to have control over me - I stop and I breathe. I realize and understand that this fear comes from the fear of not being able to live out the energies of having sex with other women. I commit myself to remove all wishes/wants/desire of having sex with other women with self-forgiveness and self-correction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to be with my ex-partner and to allow this point to exist as a backdoor within and as myself. I realize that with this I compromise myself by trying to avoid taking complete self-responsibility for myself and my agreements/commitments. When and as I see myself looking for back-doors in order to not follow my commitments/agreements - I stop and breathe. I immediately apply self-forgiveness and self-correction through breathing and directing myself according to my agreements and commitments to myself and my partner.

I commit myself to openly discuss any points/reactions that come up within myself or my partner and not hide them and or be judgmental about them.

Day 43 - Directed by emotions and feelings

(My day 42 blog is in Slovenian.)

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give into energies/feelings and chase them to get the experience. I realize that by doing so I give energies/feelings more value than Life itself where I separate myself from Life and abuse myself as Life. When and as I see myself giving into energies/feelings and wanting to chase them - I stop and breathe. I commit myself to immediately remove all desires for chasing energies/feelings and wants to experience them with self-forgiveness and self corrective application.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give into the feeling of excitement/arousal when and as I see an 'attractive' woman. I realize and understand that with this I give more value to energy as excitement/arousal than Life and abuse myself as Life. When and as I see myself wanting to give into the excitement/arousal when and as I see an 'attractive' woman - I stop and breath. I commit myself to remove all desires/wants for excitement/arousal when and as I see an 'attractive' woman and not follow the energy but stand for Life and direct myself in common sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for company/attention/comfort/acceptance from others. I realize I search for this as I do not give it to myself. When and as I see myself looking for company/attention/comfort/acceptance from others - I stop and breathe. I commit myself to immediately remove all points of searching for company/attention/comfort/acceptance from others with self-forgiveness and self-correction and by bringing myself here through breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to direct myself according to my feelings/emotions instead of common sense. I realize that with this I give energy as emotions/feelings more value than Life and so abuse Life. When and as I see myself making decision based on emotion/feelings - I stop and breathe. I commit myself to not base my decisions on emotions/feelings and remove all such points/reactions through writing, self-forgiveness and self-correction and I commit myself to make direct myself and make decisions based on common sense and what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to commit to myself to stop all desires/wants/needs for chasing/experiencing energies as feelings and emotions. I realize and understand that whenever I allow myself to have emotions/feelings I separate myself from myself and all that is here as Life and abuse Life. When and as I see myself desiring/wishing/wanting to chase/experience energies as feelings/emotions - I stop and breathe. I commit myself to remove all desires/wants/needs for chasing/experiencing energies through writing, self-forgiveness and applying self-correction where I do not follow such desires/wants/needs but direct myself here in the breath to stand as Life and do what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to please others in order to get them to like me and give me attention to validate myself through it. I realize that I do this because I do not give myself attention. When and as I see myself wanting to please others in order to get them to like me - I stop and I breathe. I commit myself to remove all wants/desires to please others with self-forgiveness and self-corrective application and give attention to myself.

Day 41 - Fear of speaking to audience

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear exposing myself and talking when many people are listening and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than and inferior to others and to compare myself to others. I realize that there is no point in judging and comparing myself as through this I only create separation through either defining myself as more than or less than which is all an illusion of the mind as polarity. When and as I see myself going into fear of exposing myself/talking when many people are listening - I stop and breathe. Instead I direct myself here in the breath and do not give fear any value as I realize and understand that what I actually fear is fear itself which is just an illusion - and simply speak without comparison.

Day 40 - Searching for attention, postponement, fear

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look/search for attention when I am with people in order to feel better, loved, safe and in order to hide myself from the emotions of fear, sadness, anxiety that I create for myself and experience when I am alone.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to be satisfied/happy with myself when I am alone.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to let go of the belief that I can only be satisfied with myself, happy and safe when I am with people and not when I am alone.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to search for recognition, attention, love and comfort in others and especially women, instead of realizing that I have to give that to myself. When and as I see myself wanting/desiring/searching to get recognition, attention, love and comfort from others - I stop and breathe. I commit myself to stop the separation of myself from recognition, attention, love and comfort through desiring this from other people and give this back to myself.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop searching for sexual energy arousal by looking at women figures and in this I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to search for sexual energy arousal by looking at women's hips, butts, breasts, thighs or any other body part. I realize that by doing this I participate in the energy program of my mind where I perpetuate the addiction/enslavement to it. Therefore when and as I see myself searching/looking for sexual energetic arousal by watching women - I stop and breathe. I commit myself to not participate in this sexual arousal mind program and direct myself in the breath.

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I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create resistances towards learning/doing school assignments within and as myself. I realize that this will not help me in any way or change the fact that I have to do it and within this I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop creating the resistances. I commit myself to stop creating the resistances towards learning and doing school assignments and enjoy myself here in the breath as I learn and/or do my school assignments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid and postpone making the assignments for school or any other task and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into future projections where I think about doing/having to do something and through this create resistance towards it by defining it as hard, boring, stupid. When and as I see myself thinking/imagining myself doing something - I stop and breathe. Instead I direct myself here in the breath and simply do the task/assignment and do not accept and allow myself to go into future projections where I only think about how would I do it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create/go into fear of failure whenever I have an assignment/task to do where I imagine/think about what will happen if I don't do it as I realize and understand that I am only sabotaging myself with this by distracting myself, instead of simply being here in the breath and focusing on the task/assignment. When and as I see myself creating/going into fear of failure when I have an assignment/task to do - I stop and breathe. I commit myself to stop and no more accept and allowing myself to go into fear of failure but simply focus on the task/assignment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into fear/anxiety/nervousness of running out of time and not having enough time to finish my task/assignment as I realize that with this I only sabotage myself as I think of what might happen as a result of my failure, instead of simply directing myself here in the breath to finish the assignment/task. I realize that there is no point in me imagining/thinking of not finishing an assignment task in time as this only makes me more noneffective which means it will take even longer for me to do the task/assignment, therefore I commit myself to stop creating/participating in fear/anxiety/nervousness of running out of time and not finishing in time. Instead I direct myself here in the breath and simply do the task/assignment.

Day 39 - Allowing myself not to be anxious, sad and in fear

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use X as a place of safety and relief, instead of realizing that I am my own relief and safety and that I only blind myself from the fact that no one and nothing outside of myself can be/give me safety/relief/happiness as I can only give this to myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I will have no partner/sex available in the future and that I will be alone. I realize that I do not need others in order to be safe and enjoy myself. When and as I see myself going into fear of having no partner/sex in the future - I stop and breathe. Instead I realize that I always have myself here in the breath and that this is all I need to enjoy myself because my fears that I create are not real and thus I allow myself to stop creating fears and negative emotions in relation to having no partner/sex and being alone in the future.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop the fear of having no partner/sex and being alone.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop defining the situation of having no partner/sex and being alone as sad, bad, meaningless, pointless, depressing.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to enjoy myself being alone/having no partner/sex. I realize that this is a great opportunity for me to get to know myself, be with myself and learn to be self-sufficient, self-directive and enjoy myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to let the fear of not meeting X again and ever having sex with X again have control over me. I realize that I must not let this fear to have control over me as I will with this enslave myself into this fear and diminish myself. I realize that this fear is not real and so I breathe, stop myself and do not accept and allow this fear of not meeting/having sex with X again to have control over me and/or direct me in any way.

I realize that I can stop all my fears because the fear I create is not me as who I really am.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to realize that I can simply stop creating fear with breathing and not participating in the mind.

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I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I will not be able to do my homework if I stay at X's place and don't go home.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that I cannot concentrate and be effective and do my homework if I stay at X's place and don't go home.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that the resistance to do the homework at X's place will be/is too strong for me to do my homework and that this resistance will go away when I am at my place.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop the fear of failure when I am having trouble with homework or something that I have to do. I realize that I am creating this fear because I do not take self-responsibility to do what it takes to be successful and finish what I have to do. When and as I see myself going into fear of failure - I stop and breathe. Instead I allow myself to stop the fear and direct myself here in the breath and find the solution to solve the problem and do what needs to be done.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop creating resistances towards doing homework or studying.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop searching for distractions in environment with which I could justify my emotions/resistances and so not take self-responsibility to stop this emotions/resistances and focus on the tasks that I have to do. When and as I see myself searching/looking for distractions and justifications for my emotions/resistances when I have to do my tasks - I stop and breath. Instead I remain here in the breath and direct myself to do the tasks while being aware that I can simply stop all fears/resistances/emotions through breathing and knowing that I am with every breath allowing myself to simply be here and not create any fears/resistances/emotions.

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I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad, depressed and anxious if I am home alone and there is no-one I could talk to. I realize that I hide myself from these feelings of sadness, depression and anxiety when I want to talk to others so that I would not have to face them and take self-responsibility for them. When and as I see myself getting sad, depressed and anxious I simply allow myself to stop manifesting these emotions through breathing and enjoy myself here in the breath in the physical.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop the feelings of sadness, depression and anxiety when I am home alone and/or have no-one to talk to.

I forgive myself NOT accepting and allowing myself to realize that I do not need other people in order to make the feelings of sadness, depression and anxiety go away as with this I only hide myself from the fact that I create them. Thus I realize that I do not need them and I allow myself to stop them with breathing and I allow myself to not recreate them as I know that creating and identifying myself with these feelings is pointless.

Day 38 - Being my starting point

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to realize that I do not have to feel sad, depressed and be in fear because I do not have a partner.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop defining not having a partner as sad and depressing.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop all the backchat, breathe and simply be here with myself.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to enjoy being with myself alone.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to realize that I made myself believe that I need certain people/situations in order to feel happy, loved, safe or a certain way.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to let go of the belief that I need a partner in order to feel loved, safe and be happy with myself.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop worrying about the future.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop worrying about what might happen if something doesn't go as I planned it.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop going into fear and anxiety when I don't see a solution to a problem that I have to solve. When and as I see myself going into fear, anxiety and nervousness when I realize that I don't see a solution to the problem that I have to solve - I stop and breathe. Instead I remain here in the breath and I look at what else can I do to find a solution.

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I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop fearing asking a professor/assistant a question/for help.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop feeling nervous before/when I want to ask a professor/assistant a question.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop judging myself as stupid and less than before/when I want to ask a professor/assistant a question.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into self-judgment and the belief that I am stupid and less than others when I ask the professor/assistant a question and others react to it.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I care so much about what others say/think about me because I do not trust myself and because I judge myself and have low self-confidence, so I believe that others have to say/think good about me, so that I will be happy with myself and accept myself as good/worthy/equal.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop worrying/caring about what others have to say or think about me. I realize that people will always have things to say about me and that their judgments and reactions are their own responsibility and have nothing to do with me or how I should see myself or look at myself.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop judging/blaming myself based on other people's reactions/judgments/comments about me.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop judging myself as strange/weird if I do not act in the same way that others do or that the majority deos.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to be myself and be confident with myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to blend in with the majority.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to realize that I fear to expose myself in front of others or be in center of attention because I care about what others say/think about me.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to trust myself to be myself, accept myself and direct/support myself in a way that is best for me while not harming/limiting others and allowing/helping them to do the same.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to be my own starting point and do things for me. I realize that I only have myself and that no one can help me be me or change me as I can only do that for myself.

I commit myself to be my own starting point and do things for me and because of me and to always bring points back to myself and align myself to what is best for all life.

Day 37 - Safety

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define safety as having a certain future.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define safety as a lack of fear of the future.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to search for/desire the feeling of safety through securing my future and making it certain in terms of having a good job, a lot of money and many friends that are willing to help me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define safety through/as being certain that I will be able to have, save and protect what I have/want to have. I realize that the only thing I have is me and everything else was never mine and never will be. I realize that everything I perceive I have can and will be taken away and yet I will remain here. When and as I see myself looking for safety, fearing the future - I stop and I breathe. I realize that I fear loosing and not having what I never really had anyway and so I stop defining myself through that which I perceive I have and could loose. I realize that I only have myself here in the breath and that the only safety and certainty that I have is the certainty of me always being here with me and the certainty of me directing me. I commit myself to always immediately see through the illusion of fears of the future and search for safety and to remind myself that the only thing that I really have is me and nothing else. I commit myself to let go of everything that can/will be taken away from me and not hang on to anything and to direct myself here in the breath towards common sense and what is best for all as me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to search for safety through being with/having a partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hanging on to my partner for the illusion of safety.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wishing/wanting/desiring a partner in order to create/have the illusion of safety.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to equate having a partner with safety.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to stop defining safety as something outside of myself, like my partner or having a partner, having friends and having a lot of money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear letting go of the idea/illusion of safety through my partner and having a partner.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to let go of the idea/illusion of safety through my partner/having a partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that safety is something outside of myself.

Day 36 - School and study fears & definitions

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid that I will not finish schooling. When and as I see myself being afraid that I will not finish school – I stop and I breathe. I realize that fearing and imagining myself failing is self-sabotage. I commit myself to stop the fear and thoughts of me not finishing school and remain here in the breath, directing myself in the physical and focus on the here moment and learn/do what is required to be successful.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid that the school is too hard for me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define school as hard/too hard for me. I realize that the school seems hard/too hard for me just because I defined it as such. When and as I see myself defining school as hard/too hard for me – I stop and breathe. I commit myself to stop defining school and learning as hard/too hard and simply be here in the breath in the moment and do/learn what is required for me to finish school.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that I am unable to learn everything that is expected of me to finish the school. I realize that this is a belief that I created and that I simply have to stop defining/believing that I am unable to learn everything that is expected of me. I commit myself to stop believing and making beliefs that I am unable to learn everything that is expected of me to finish school and be here in the breath in the moment and direct myself to do/learn what is required to finish school.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into fear whenever I see I do not understand something at school. I realize that this fear is completely irrational as I create it through thinking/imagining the consequences of me failing, which is self-sabotage. When and as I see myself going into fear when I do not understand something at school and/or imagining the consequences of me failing – I stop and I breathe. I commit myself to remain here in the breath when I do not understand something and ask for support and look at how I can assist myself to understand and learn what is required.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to immediately go into self-judgment when I do not know something at school. I realize that I cannot expect from me to know and immediately understand what I learn at school because I go to school to learn new things. When and as I see myself immediately going into self-judgment when I do not know something at school – I stop and breathe. I commit myself to stop all self-judgment when I do not know something at school and to always remind myself that it is unrealistic of me to expect that I will know/understand everything immediately and at the same time than others do when I learn new things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to immediately go into self-judgment when I see that others already know/understand something at school that I don't, believing that I should know too and that I am failing and not being good enough and then go into fear of imagining the consequences of me not knowing/failing. I realize that this is complete self-sabotage that is of no use as there is always people that know more than me or who will 'get it' sooner and that this does not mean that I am failing or being less than and that I will not finish school or be able to learn what is required because of it. I commit myself to stop all self-judgment when I see that others already know/understand something at school that I don't and I commit myself to stop all beliefs that I should know too and that I will be failing school because of this.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that it is hard / unpleasant to learn/study. I realize that I experience it as so because I believe it is as I have created this belief. When and as I see myself having resistance to study/learn, believing that it is hard / unpleasant to learn/study – I stop and breathe. I commit myself to stop the belief that it is hard / unpleasant to learn/study and I commit myself to stop all resistances towards learning/studying.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I can never enjoy myself when I learn/study for school. I realize that this belief is in no way useful as I realize I can enjoy learning/studying for school as anyone else as soon as I stop believing that I cannot enjoy learning/studying for school. When and as I see myself not enjoying studying for school and believing I cannot enjoy studying for school – I stop and breathe. I commit myself to stop all beliefs that I cannot enjoy myself studying for school and to be here in the breath in the moment and enjoy directing myself in learning new things as I study for school.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define studying for school as not fun/depressing. I realize that I experience studying for school as not fun/depressing because I defined it as such and because I believe that this is so instead of stopping the belief and enjoying myself here as I study for school. When and as I see myself experiencing studying as not fun/depressing and defining it as such – I stop and breathe. I commit myself to stop all beliefs that studying for school is not fun/is depressing and I direct myself here in the breath to enjoy myself as I study for school.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to immediately go into resistance and anxiety when I study for school or thing of studying for school. I realize that I experience this resistance and anxiety because of all the definitions and beliefs I created around studying for school and so I commit myself to let go of all the definitions/judgments/beliefs about studying and simply be here in the breath, directing and enjoying myself as I study for school. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to immediately start thinking about what could I do instead of studying for school when studying, going to study or thinking about studying. I realize that I do that because I defined studying for school as not fun and other things as more fun. When and as I see myself starting to think about other things I could do instead of studying when I study, go to study or thinking about studying – I stop and I breathe. I commit myself to stop defining studying as less fun as other things and to let go of all negative definitions about studying and to stop comparing studying with other activities and simply be here in the breath in the moment as I study, go to study or thing about studying.

Day 35 - Self-Intimacy, fear of a relative dying

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to be completely intimate with myself.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to be vulnerable with myself.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to completely expose myself to myself in self-honesty and without judgments.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to look deep into myself without judgments, to get to know who I have accepted and allowed myself to become so that I can correct myself and realign myself with Life and what is best for all in all ways.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I do this for me and no one else as only I can change me and realign me what is best for all and be Life here, one and equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create and give into a resistance to face myself and write myself out. When and as I see myself resist facing myself and writing myself out - I stop and I breathe. I realize that the feeling/resistance I created for myself is a pattern and a self-defence mechanism of the mind where I am avoiding facing myself and taking self-responsibility to direct, change and realign myself with what is best for all. I commit myself to stop/transcend the resistance and face myself in self-honesty, self-intimacy and self-vulnerability and write myself out to see the patterns and re-align myself with what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to walk my process for me first to first get to know me and change/realign me according to what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to be completely self-honest and self-intimate with myself and to allow myself to be vulnerable to myself in order to see/explore all of me and what I have accepted and allowed myself to become and so change/correct and realign me according to what is best for all Life.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into fear of death when I see X.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the death of one of my relatives.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear facing the consequences/situation of one of my relatives dying. When and as I see myself fearing the consequence/situation of one of my relatives dying - I stop and breathe. I realize that I create this fear myself through the backchat of the mind where I fear losing that which I never had and so I stop. I commit myself to stop all fear of death and other people/relatives dying and be here in the breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear having to show sadness and cry when one of my relative dies so that others wouldn't judge me as careless/heartless/inconsiderate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being accused of/judged as/blamed for being heartless/heartless/inconsiderate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge me as being careless/heartless/inconsiderate if I don't cry/am sad when one of my relatives die.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that a person that does not cry and is not sad when someone dies is heartless/careless and inconsiderate.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that crying/sadness has nothing to do with caring and being considerate as these emotions are just a momentary release of an energy build up.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear seeing my mother and father crying and being sad.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear having to comfort/support my mother and father or someone else when they are crying and being sad.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to freeze and go into fear when I see my parents/someone crying or being sad.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that I don't know what to do and how to comfort someone when one is crying/sad.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge/define hugging my mother and father as awkward.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel awkward/embarrassed/ashamed when I hug my mother or father or someone else.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that hugging one's mother or father is strange/awkward/embarrassing and a sign of being weak/childish.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that I am weak/'gay'/childish if I hug my father or my mother.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as weak/childish/dependant if I hug my mother or father.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge/define hugging one's parents as a sign of being weak/childish/dependant.

Day 34 - Fear of bugs

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear and be afraid of bugs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that bugs will hurt me and make me sick/infected.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define bugs as ugly/gross/scary/disgusting and horrifying.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive/define hairy bugs as gross/disgusting/ugly.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that dead bugs are gross and disgusting.

Spiders:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear spiders.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that a spider would bite me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of spider's venom.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define/see/perceive spider's as ugly/disgusting/horrifying.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define/see/perceive spider's mouth, eyes, legs and hairs as ugly/disgusting/horrifying.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive/define multiple spider eyes as scary/ugly and disgusting.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the picture/shape of a spider with ugliness/disgustingness/horror. lol

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that a spider will jump on me and hurt me. lol

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that a spider will crawl into my mouth, nose or other body openings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I will accidentally get a spider into my mouth
and eat it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid to touch a spider and have it on my skin/body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that spiders are aggressive and will bite me and hurt me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to imagine spider biting me when I have it on my skin/body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that spiders are dirty/infected and that I will get dirty/infected as well if I touch them and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe that I have to clean myself if a spider was touching my skin.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that dead spider are gross and disgusting.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into an urge to get a spider off of me as quickly as possible when I see him on my skin/body. When and as I see myself going into a fear reaction when I see a spider on my skin/body - I stop and breathe. I realize I am perpetuating an irrational fear reaction and so I stop. I commit myself to stop all reactions to spiders and not react when I see a spider on my skin/body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with fear and disgust when I have a spider on my skin/body. when and as I see myself reacting with fear/disgust when I have a spider on my skin/body - I stop and breathe. I realize that I am creating all these fears/judgments about spiders myself for no reason but to be enslaved/limited to my own energy experience of the mind and so I stop. I commit myself to stop all fears/judgments/reactions to spiders and be here in the breath and one and equal with them.

Grasshoppers:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear and be afraid of grasshoppers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that a grasshopper will bite me and hurt me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define/see/perceive a grasshoppers eyes, mouth, head, legs and body as gross/disgusting/ugly and terrifying.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to imagine a grasshopper biting me when I see one.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into an urge to get a grasshopper off of me as quickly as possible when I see him on my skin/body. When and as I see myself going into a fear reaction when I see a grasshopper on my skin/body - I stop and breathe. I realize I am perpetuating an irrational fear reaction and so I stop. I commit myself to stop all reactions to grasshoppers and not react when I see a grasshopper on my skin/body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with fear and disgust when I have a grasshopper on my skin/body. when and as I see myself reacting with fear/disgust when I have a grasshopper on my skin/body - I stop and breathe. I realize that I am creating all these fears/judgments about grasshoppers myself for no reason but to be enslaved/limited to my own energy experience of the mind and so I stop. I commit myself to stop all fears/judgments/reactions to grasshoppers and be here in the breath and one and equal with them.

Day 33 - Meeting the familiar people & Whispering

Usually when I encounter someone I know from somewhere I react with fear of starting a conversation with them as I realize that I don't remember their name which I see as embarrassing. So I look away and avoid contact.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into an irrational fear when I see someone familiar whose name I don't remember. When and as I see myself going into an irrational fear when seeing someone familiar - I stop and I breathe. I realize that I fear my own fear and react to it. I commit myself to stop the fear of meeting familiar people whose names I don't know or any other people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be embarrassed when I don't know/forgot someone's name. I realize that being embarrassed is completely unnecessary as it will not solve/change anything. I commit myself to stop all embarrassment/fear in front of other people and simply be here in the breath.

I commit myself to when I see someone familiar and don't know his name, to no go into fear and look away and avoid contact, but instead say hello and stop all fears/self judgments/embarrassment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into irritation whenever I hear someone whispering/mumbling/talking quietly.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that whispering/mumbling/talking quietly is rude/inappropriate and disrespectful.

I commit myself to stop irritations/reactions and all definitions about whispering/mumbling/talking quietly.

Day 32 - Sexual Attraction to Pictures

Flat stomachs

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as arousal and sexual excitement whenever I see a flat woman's stomach. When and as I see myself going into arousal and sexual excitement when I see a flat woman's stomach – I stop and breathe. I realize that I myself have defined the picture of a flat woman's stomach as sexual and arousing and so I myself am the one who is still accepting and allowing in that moment to get/be aroused and sexually excited, by having the picture of a flat woman's stomach as a trigger point. I commit myself to stop the addiction to sexual energetic excitement through picture stimulation such as the flat woman's stomach.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the picture of a flat woman's stomach as an excuse and justification as why I am excited. When and as I see myself using/existing within and as the excuse of 'it is the picture of a flat woman's stomach that got me excited' – I stop and breathe. I realize that I am the one who is still accepting and allowing myself to become/be excited through the excuse/justification that it is a picture of a flat woman's stomach who got me excited. I commit myself to not user external points as an excuse of why I am excited/sexually aroused and why I am the way I am and to direct myself here in the breath to stop energetic addictions through perceived pictures such as a flat woman's stomach.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as the desire to touch a flat woman's stomach and get the experience of hitting a jackpot in the way where I would get what I always imagined/wanted/desired through thoughts in my mind. When and as I see myself existing within and as the desire to touch a flat woman's stomach – I stop and breathe. I realize that I exist within this desire as I have given this act of being able to touch a flat woman's stomach a higher value within my mind as a pattern through which I would/could experience the highest possible energetic sexual arousal and orgasm. I commit myself to stop searching/chasing the sexual energetic high/orgasm and stop the pattern of sexual addiction to energy and energetic arousal through pictures/imagination/thoughts and instead create a new pattern where I remain here in the breath and focus on the physical touch without any pictures/thoughts/wishes/desires.

Women figures

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look and search for 'perfect' women figures whenever I am around women. When and as I see myself looking/searching for 'perfect' women figures – I stop and breathe. I realize that I am through this still accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as the pattern of addiction to sexual energy arousal through pictures. I commit myself to stop looking/searching for ‘perfect’ pictures of women figures by being self-directive in the moment and not intentionally turning my head/eyes towards such pictures but remaining here in the breath, not accepting and allowing myself to be directed by such energies/desires.

Day 31 - Laziness, too muchness, giving up

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the lazy character whenever I start doing my lesson and search for excuses why not to do it. When and as I see myself being in a lazy character - I stop and I breathe. I realize that I am giving into the pattern/emotion of laziness and all I have to do is to direct myself to do what needs to be done. I commit myself to stop the laziness character and direct myself and move myself to do what needs to be done.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself the backchat of 'I will do it later' as an excuse to not start working on my lesson and/or not finishing it. When and as I see myself making excuses for postponing - I stop and I breathe. I realize that with this I only perpetuate the pattern of postponing what I will have to do anyway. I commit myself to stop all excuses for postponement and direct myself here in the breath to do what needs to be done.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself the thought of 'it is too much work, too hard' to exist within and as me as an excuse why not to start working and/or finish my lesson. When and as I see myself existing within the thought of 'it is too much, too hard' I stop and I breathe. I realize that I am only postponing and building up a resistance towards something that I will have to do anyway. I commit myself to stop the thoughts of 'it is too much, too hard' and direct myself to do and finish what needs to be done breath by breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself the thought of ' I don't know how' to exist within an as me as an excuse why not to start working and/or finish my lesson. When and as I see myself existing withing the thought 'I don't know how - I stop and I breathe. I realize that this is only a created self-limitation with which I avoid expanding myself and taking self responsibility. I commit myself to stop the excuse of 'I don't know how' and direct myself to take self-responsibility for and learn/investigate the point and do/find a solution to what needs to be done.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into a give up and postponement character whenever I start working on a lesson and get resistance to do it. When and as I see myself getting into a resistance to do something - I stop and I breathe. I commit myself to stop the resistance through self-forgiveness, effective breathing and directing myself to do and finish what I am doing.

Day 30 - Want to be noticed & Fearing to speak

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for fulfillment of being noticed and cared for from another. I realize that I am doing this because I do not fulfill, notice and take care of myself. When and as I see myself looking for fulfillment, wanting to be noticed and cared for - I stop and I breathe. Instead I gift back myself to myself by noticing myself and taking care of myself and fulfilling myself with myself as who I am as Life here in every breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into sadness when I think/believe/perceive I am not noticed. I realize that I have separated myself from notice by wanting someone else to notice me. When and as I see myself going into sadness and wishing/wanting/desiring to be noticed by another - I stop and I breathe. I notice and give attention to myself and stand here in the breath in self-fulfillment as Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that I need someone to notice me. I realize that this is separation as I can give notice and attention back to myself and so stop the desire. When and as I see myself thinking/believing/perceiving that I need someone to notice me - I stop and I breathe. Instead I notice myself and give attention back to myself and take care of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to be noticed/accepted/loved/special within my relationships with others and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel insecure whenever I see/perceive no one notices me. When and as I see myself wishing/wanting/desiring to be noticed/accepted/loved/special - I stop and I breath. Instead I notice and give attention to myself and stand as an equal to others and all that is here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself and my thoughts before I speak to the point of giving into fear of speaking and not speaking at all. When and as I see myself judging myself and my thoughts before I speak - I stop and I breathe. Instead I share and express myself in the moment and expand myself through self-honesty and common sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the excuse of 'I don't know how' in order to no speak up and share/express what I wanted. When and as I see myself suppressing myself with the belief of 'I don't know how' to speak about something - I stop and I breathe. Instead I share and express myself and not go into self-judgment.

Day 29 - Avoiding Strangers Self-Commitment Statements

I commit myself to stop avoiding strangers and and unfamiliar people and direct myself here in the breath to stop all fears.

I commit myself to stop all judgment/comparison of myself and others when being around (unfamiliar) people and be here in the breath.

I commit myself to no longer search for acceptance from other people but to accept myself as an equal.

I commit myself to stop/remove all separation/reactions that come up within myself when being around (unfamiliar) people through self-forgiveness and self-correction until I am always equal here in the breath.

I commit myself to stop and remove the pattern of fear of stranger/unfamiliar people with self-forgiveness and self-correction until I am always here in the breath equal.

I commit myself to stop all reactions and judgments when I talk to (unfamiliar) people and to talk and express myself equally with others as do when with self.

I commit myself to stop all superiority/inferiority when being/speaking with (unfamiliar) people through self-forgiveness and self-correction until I am always equal here in the breath.

I commit myself to stop all judgments/reactions to what other people are saying with self-forgiveness and self-correction until I am always equal here in the breath and to direct the conversation through common sense and what is best for all and I commit myself to not avoid taking self-responsibility to speak and share myself and what I realized about self and common sense and what is best for all.

I commit myself to expand myself through meeting/talking to unfamiliar people and share myself and remove/stop all reactions/fears through self-forgiveness and self-corrective application.

Day 28 - Avoiding Strangers

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid strangers and talking with unfamiliar people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear strangers and unfamiliar people and their judgements.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge and compare myself and others when I am around people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to constantly think about how could I fit in and be accepted by other people when being with them.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to accept myself when I am around people / strangers.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that strangers and unfamiliar people are no different than any other person I know and are actually the same as I am, with the same problems, thoughts, fears, etc.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel uncomfortable, uneasy, tense when around strangers and unfamiliar people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think / believe / perceive that I have to defend myself and be 'tough' around strangers and unfamiliar people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think / believe / perceive that I have to fight for my equal position with others when around strangers and unfamiliar people, instead of just accepting myself as an equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the pattern of going into fear and self-judgement when speaking with strangers and unfamiliar people, instead of breathing and being here in the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think / believe / perceive that there is nothing I can talk about with strangers and unfamiliar people and think / believe / perceive that this is normal and how it should be when I am with people.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I can be relaxed with all people no matter where I am.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to be relaxed when around people / strangers / unfamiliar people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think / believe / perceive that when I speak to someone I have to always show / teach something new and be in a teacher/giver character, instead of simply sharing myself here in the moment as an equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge people with specific beliefs / ways of living as completely brainwashed and closed for anything new and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think / believe / perceive that speaking with people with specific beliefs / ways of living is a waste of time, instead of realizing that by participating / interacting with all people equally I expand myself and get to know myself better and how the world works.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think / believe / perceive that I have to always stand as a perfect example of common sense and what is best for all when being around others and or talking with others / strangers and within this creating fear of not being like this, instead of realizing that I am walking my process and so being self-honest in the every here moment and sharing myself according to how I already understand myself and the world and the principles of common sense and what is best for all and not trying to present myself as something 'more than' as an idea of who I would like to be and within this sharing knowledge and information that I do not actually live or understand yet myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to immediately reject other people's ideas / beliefs instead of listening to them and reflecting myself within what they are saying and sharing myself as what I have realized as myself as an equal as another according to common sense and what is best for all within the points that are shared.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into superiority whenever I see / perceive someone talking / doing something that I already realized is a mind-fuck and don't do any more, instead of sharing myself and what I realized equally as another and stand as an example of change to others so that we may all realize ourselves faster according to common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into inferiority whenever I see / perceive someone is talking / doing something that I haven't realized yet or haven't made the self-correction yet, instead of taking the opportunity to reflect myself and see / realize where and how I am still not aligned with common sense and what is best for all and walking the self-forgiveness, self-correction and self-application.

Day 27 - I'm busy don't bother me character

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into fear of others and introvert myself whenever I come close to strangers and/or see/perceive that I could get into contact with them, instead of breathing and directing myself here in the moment.

I commit myself to not avoid (contact with) 'strangers' and to breathe and stop all self-judgments and backchat through self-forgiveness and self-correction to stand as an equal with others as with self.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear contact and avoid eye contact with people to avoid any conversation/interaction and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear what others will think about me/how they will judge me, instead of realizing that I have to stop my own self-judgment and be here in the breath.

I commit myself to stop all self-judgments and fears about interaction with other people through breathing, self-forgiveness and self-correction to stan clear here in the breath in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into 'I am busy don't bother me' character, where I pretend I am very focused on what I am doing and wouldn't like to be bothered, whenever I fear / don't want to get in contact with other people. When and as I see myself going into 'I am busy don't bother me' character - I stop and I breathe. I stay here in the breath and direct myself within practical common sense.

I commit myself to stop and remove and not use the 'I am busy don't bother me' character to avoid contact with other people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think about what other people might think about me when I am around them, instead of being here in the breath in the physical.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into backchat and think about other people when I see them, where I make judgments, comparisons, opinions, beliefs about them. I realize that within this I create my own fear of what others might think about me. When ad as I see myself going into backchat about other people - I stop and I breathe. Instead I remain here in the breath and focus on the physical.

I commit myself to stop all backchat, judgments, comparisons, opinions, beliefs about other people with effective breathing and self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become irritated / angry when I see / perceive that someone bothered/disturbed me. I realize that I create this situation myself where I think / believe / perceive that I shouldn't be disturbed / bothered because I fear that I will lose my direction / focus. When and as I see myself fearing of being bothered - I stop and I breathe. When and as I see myself thinking / believing that someone is bothering me and get irritated / angry - I stop and I breathe. Instead I remain here in the breath and direct the situation according to practical common sense.

I commit myself to not get irritated / angry when I am doing something / am focused on something and someone else wants my attention or interrupts me.

Day 26 - Relationship points

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be attached to my partner and give her a special place in my mind where I attach/connect with her all the good/positive memories that I experienced with her. I realize that this special memories are not real and were never mine as they can be lost and deleted at any time and so I fear losing what I never really had. When and as I see myself fearing to loose the special memories and definitions of my partner - I stop and I breathe. Instead I bring myself here in the breath and apply self-forgiveness and self-corrective application on whatever comes up that I am still hanging onto and fear losing.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear what will happen if I remove the special definitions of my partner and become self-directive and self-sufficient, instead of realizing that I actually fear being here with myself in self-direction and making myself self-sufficient and self-responsible. When and as I see myself fearing what will happen if I remove the special definitions of/attachments to my partner - I stop and I breathe. Instead I realize: I will become self-directive, self-sufficient, self-responsible and have self-trust to stand as one and equal and not fear losing anything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold on to the memories of me and my partner and define them as positive and special instead of being here in the breath and deleting all and any memories that come up in the mind. I realize that if I do not stop and delete this memories and my special attachments/definitions of them I will only get emotional and fear losing them or wish having them and fuck myself into eternity by cycling through them. When and as I see myself holding onto the memories of me and my partner - I stop and I breathe. Instead I apply self-forgiveness and self-correction and be here in the breath and don't compromise myself with them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold on to the wish/desire to be with my partner again and have a special relationship with her, instead of realizing that I am just fearing to delete and remove all my special attachments to her. When and as I see myself holding onto the wish/desire to be with my partner again and have a special relationship with her - I stop and I breathe. Instead I do the self-forgiveness statements and self correction to stop the desire/wish and be here in the breath as self-sufficient.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that my partner fulfills me. I realize that with this I allow myself to be flawed and dependent. When and as I see myself thinking/believing/perceiving that my partner fulfills me - I stop and I breathe. Instead I fulfill myself alone and stand as self-sufficient, self-fulfilling being and I commit myself to expand myself wherever I see I am still flawed and dependent on others to fulfill me.

Day 25 - Scratching distractions

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distract myself when I write, read or do something on my computer and so through this postpone and be ineffective in what I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distract myself by scratching my head and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get annoyed by my dandruff and/or dry skin and stuff that gets behind my fingernails and so distract myself with scratching and cleaning my fingernails, instead of stopping the distractions/urge to scratch and being here in the breath and focusing on what I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distract myself with opening various unrelated pages while I read/write and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to follow the urge/desire for a short burst of an exciting feeling by looking at pages that I find exciting, instead of breathing and being here and focusing on what I am doing.

I commit myself to stop the distractions with breathing and directing myself here to continue what I am doing when and as I realize that I distract myself.

Day 24 - Sly remarks and waking up

Reactions to sly remarks:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get irritated whenever I see/perceive that someone is making sly remarks about me, instead of breathing and applying self forgiveness and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to have my revenge and get even with someone who I see/perceive makes a sly remark about me or deliberately wants me to react. I realize that I am creating my own reaction and that I am responsible for it. When and as I see myself wishing/wanting/desiring to have my revenge and get even with someone who make sly remarks about me or deliberately wants me to react - I stop and I breathe. Instead I apply self-forgiveness and self-correction and do not participate in such games.

I commit myself to make a note for myself when and as I see myself reacting to a point someone is speaking about to investigate it and see why did I react and apply self forgiveness and self correction.

I can sleep a bit longer character:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get annoyed and irritated when the alarm wakes me up in the morning instead of opening me eyes and being here, breathing, and turning it off.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think "oh f**k it is time already" and "do I have to get up already?" as I turn off the alarm, instead of being here and focusing on my breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to imagine a picture of me lying in bed softly and warmly covered and in this to desire to stay like that, instead of being here in the breath, ready to move and direct myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think "it is ok to rest a bit longer and no reason to get up immediately" and "it is so cold and unpleasant outside the cover" as I sit up or lay awake, instead of realizing that within such backchat I make the resistance to get up even stronger for myself. When and as I see myself thinking  "it is ok to rest a bit longer and no reason to get up immediately" and "it is so cold and unpleasant outside the cover" - I stop and breathe and I get up and enjoy directing myself her in the breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that waking up and getting up in the morning is hard and frustrating, instead of realizing it is a simple act of opening one's eyes and getting out of bed here in the breath, enjoying directing self in the physical.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive coldness and the feeling of cold air as it touches my skin as something horrible/unpleasant/undesirable and irritating, instead  of simply being here in the breath and get my clothes on.

I commit myself to stay here in the breath as I wake up in the morning and apply self-forgiveness and self-correction if any thoughts come up and enjoy directing myself here in the breath as I get up and move myself, focused on the breath, to dress up.

Day 23 - Relationship points: lostness, safety, security, comfortableness

Lostness & Decisions

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for/wait for an outside source to give me direction, instead of making a decision in self-honesty and practical common sense and live it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that I can be lost instead of realizing that I am always here and cannot lose myself here in the breath.

Safety and Security

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect my partner with safety, instead of creating and standing as my own safety.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define safety as always having someone to help me, instead of me helping myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rely on my partner/others to take care of things that I forgot about or think/believe I don’t like/want to do, instead of me taking complete self-responsibility for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect safety with money and how much I have and to go into fear when I lose money and happiness when I get money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to search for safety in my partner by trying to hide and protect myself through my partner, instead of taking complete self-responsibility for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to run away from myself and try to hide from facing myself through relationship with my partner and or by distracting myself otherwise, instead of taking complete self-responsibility and facing myself in self-honesty no matter where or who I am with or what I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into fear of the future whenever I am not with her/my partner and/or when I am alone and have no partner and am not in a relationship/agreement, instead of remaining here in the breath and trusting myself to take care of myself no matter what.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel more secure when I am with her/my partner/in a relationship and to feel threatened/unstable/vulnerable when am alone, instead of standing and trusting myself  to always take care of myself and be safe and secure.

Comfortableness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel more comfortable with her/my partner than I do with others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define/see/perceive touching her/my partner as something different/more special than touching anyone else, instead of realizing that any touch is just a touch in the physical and that no touch is ‘more than’ or ‘less than’ because all touch is equal.