Day 26 - Relationship points

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be attached to my partner and give her a special place in my mind where I attach/connect with her all the good/positive memories that I experienced with her. I realize that this special memories are not real and were never mine as they can be lost and deleted at any time and so I fear losing what I never really had. When and as I see myself fearing to loose the special memories and definitions of my partner - I stop and I breathe. Instead I bring myself here in the breath and apply self-forgiveness and self-corrective application on whatever comes up that I am still hanging onto and fear losing.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear what will happen if I remove the special definitions of my partner and become self-directive and self-sufficient, instead of realizing that I actually fear being here with myself in self-direction and making myself self-sufficient and self-responsible. When and as I see myself fearing what will happen if I remove the special definitions of/attachments to my partner - I stop and I breathe. Instead I realize: I will become self-directive, self-sufficient, self-responsible and have self-trust to stand as one and equal and not fear losing anything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold on to the memories of me and my partner and define them as positive and special instead of being here in the breath and deleting all and any memories that come up in the mind. I realize that if I do not stop and delete this memories and my special attachments/definitions of them I will only get emotional and fear losing them or wish having them and fuck myself into eternity by cycling through them. When and as I see myself holding onto the memories of me and my partner - I stop and I breathe. Instead I apply self-forgiveness and self-correction and be here in the breath and don't compromise myself with them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold on to the wish/desire to be with my partner again and have a special relationship with her, instead of realizing that I am just fearing to delete and remove all my special attachments to her. When and as I see myself holding onto the wish/desire to be with my partner again and have a special relationship with her - I stop and I breathe. Instead I do the self-forgiveness statements and self correction to stop the desire/wish and be here in the breath as self-sufficient.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that my partner fulfills me. I realize that with this I allow myself to be flawed and dependent. When and as I see myself thinking/believing/perceiving that my partner fulfills me - I stop and I breathe. Instead I fulfill myself alone and stand as self-sufficient, self-fulfilling being and I commit myself to expand myself wherever I see I am still flawed and dependent on others to fulfill me.

Day 25 - Scratching distractions

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distract myself when I write, read or do something on my computer and so through this postpone and be ineffective in what I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distract myself by scratching my head and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get annoyed by my dandruff and/or dry skin and stuff that gets behind my fingernails and so distract myself with scratching and cleaning my fingernails, instead of stopping the distractions/urge to scratch and being here in the breath and focusing on what I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distract myself with opening various unrelated pages while I read/write and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to follow the urge/desire for a short burst of an exciting feeling by looking at pages that I find exciting, instead of breathing and being here and focusing on what I am doing.

I commit myself to stop the distractions with breathing and directing myself here to continue what I am doing when and as I realize that I distract myself.

Day 24 - Sly remarks and waking up

Reactions to sly remarks:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get irritated whenever I see/perceive that someone is making sly remarks about me, instead of breathing and applying self forgiveness and self-corrective application.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to have my revenge and get even with someone who I see/perceive makes a sly remark about me or deliberately wants me to react. I realize that I am creating my own reaction and that I am responsible for it. When and as I see myself wishing/wanting/desiring to have my revenge and get even with someone who make sly remarks about me or deliberately wants me to react - I stop and I breathe. Instead I apply self-forgiveness and self-correction and do not participate in such games.

I commit myself to make a note for myself when and as I see myself reacting to a point someone is speaking about to investigate it and see why did I react and apply self forgiveness and self correction.

I can sleep a bit longer character:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get annoyed and irritated when the alarm wakes me up in the morning instead of opening me eyes and being here, breathing, and turning it off.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think "oh f**k it is time already" and "do I have to get up already?" as I turn off the alarm, instead of being here and focusing on my breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to imagine a picture of me lying in bed softly and warmly covered and in this to desire to stay like that, instead of being here in the breath, ready to move and direct myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think "it is ok to rest a bit longer and no reason to get up immediately" and "it is so cold and unpleasant outside the cover" as I sit up or lay awake, instead of realizing that within such backchat I make the resistance to get up even stronger for myself. When and as I see myself thinking  "it is ok to rest a bit longer and no reason to get up immediately" and "it is so cold and unpleasant outside the cover" - I stop and breathe and I get up and enjoy directing myself her in the breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that waking up and getting up in the morning is hard and frustrating, instead of realizing it is a simple act of opening one's eyes and getting out of bed here in the breath, enjoying directing self in the physical.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive coldness and the feeling of cold air as it touches my skin as something horrible/unpleasant/undesirable and irritating, instead  of simply being here in the breath and get my clothes on.

I commit myself to stay here in the breath as I wake up in the morning and apply self-forgiveness and self-correction if any thoughts come up and enjoy directing myself here in the breath as I get up and move myself, focused on the breath, to dress up.

Day 23 - Relationship points: lostness, safety, security, comfortableness

Lostness & Decisions

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for/wait for an outside source to give me direction, instead of making a decision in self-honesty and practical common sense and live it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that I can be lost instead of realizing that I am always here and cannot lose myself here in the breath.

Safety and Security

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect my partner with safety, instead of creating and standing as my own safety.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define safety as always having someone to help me, instead of me helping myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rely on my partner/others to take care of things that I forgot about or think/believe I don’t like/want to do, instead of me taking complete self-responsibility for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect safety with money and how much I have and to go into fear when I lose money and happiness when I get money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to search for safety in my partner by trying to hide and protect myself through my partner, instead of taking complete self-responsibility for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to run away from myself and try to hide from facing myself through relationship with my partner and or by distracting myself otherwise, instead of taking complete self-responsibility and facing myself in self-honesty no matter where or who I am with or what I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into fear of the future whenever I am not with her/my partner and/or when I am alone and have no partner and am not in a relationship/agreement, instead of remaining here in the breath and trusting myself to take care of myself no matter what.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel more secure when I am with her/my partner/in a relationship and to feel threatened/unstable/vulnerable when am alone, instead of standing and trusting myself  to always take care of myself and be safe and secure.

Comfortableness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel more comfortable with her/my partner than I do with others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define/see/perceive touching her/my partner as something different/more special than touching anyone else, instead of realizing that any touch is just a touch in the physical and that no touch is ‘more than’ or ‘less than’ because all touch is equal.

Day 22 - The Decision Character

Making decisions is something I am not effective at yet as I usually let something 'outside of me' to make decisions for me or just wait to see what happens and then just go along with it. When I am deciding I usually consider many things, but most of them are based on mind-fucks, such as my desire to please others/everyone, fears of loosing something, fears on loosing money and what others think/say/suggest, so in this I never really investigate for myself what is the best way to act/decide and I avoid taking complete self-responsibility for my decisions as I never really make decisions based on my self-direction but let other things to have influence on me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that I am not good at making decisions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try and avoid making decisions for myself and taking complete self-responsibility for my decisions by just going along with what happens.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to base my decisions on something 'outside' of myself and letting things happen, instead of directing myself in common sense and taking self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear making decisions and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I will make the 'wrong' decision and later regret it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not trust myself in making decisions and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want to rely and trust other's opinions and suggestions more than I trust myself in making decisions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that there are 'right'/'good' and 'wrong'/'bad' decisions and 'small'/'easy' and 'big'/'hard' decisions, instead of realizing that all decisions are equally just that - decisions - but with different consequences where some are proffered and others not.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that all decisions can be re-considered and re-aligned/corrected if and when I realize that their consequences are not preferred and not aligned with common sense and what is best for all and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that 'bigger' decisions are 'more serious' than 'smaller' decisions, instead of realizing that all decisions are equal within who I am when making them and within their consequential outflows.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make my decisions based on wish/want/desire to please others and make others happy and satisfied, instead of looking at practical common sense and what I would actually prefer doing here in the physical within the breath to support myself as an equal and consequently support others within developing common sense and working towards what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make decisions based on what others say/think/believe/suggest by putting more value on the opinions of others and what others say. I realize that with this I make myself inferior to others where I don't take complete self-responsibility for myself and my decisions and don't completely stand as/live my decisions and so allow myself to be swayed and manipulated by others. When and as I see myself putting more value on the opinions of others when making my decisions and basing my decisions on what others say - I stop and I breathe. Instead I investigate for myself and inform myself as best as I can and make a decision based on common sense and self-honesty where I am able to stand by it and take self-responsibility for it within considering what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to base my decisions on how others will react and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear others reactions to my decisions and to compromise my decisions out of fear of others reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to base my decision according to my feelings/emotions, instead of clearing myself to stand clear within the breath and making my decisions according to common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to base my decisions according to money and fear of losing money, instead of common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to value/compare decisions according to how I feel about them, instead of clearing myself from emotions/feelings/reactions and looking at them in common sense and what is practically best for all.

I commit myself to within making decisions - clear myself from reactions, fears, emotions/feelings through investigating the source of these mindfucks and removing/deleting them with self-forgiveness and self-correction.

I commit myself to base my decisions on self-honesty, common sense and what is best for all and not on fear, emotions/feelings, money and others reactions or opinions.

I commit myself to trust myself within my decisions and not take others opinions/suggestions as superior and so letting others decide for me.

Day 21 - Relationship points: helplessness

How do I experience helplessness?
I don’t know how to do something and I perceive I have no one to ask for help and I fear that I will not be able to overcome what I am doing. I judge myself as incapable and feel ashamed, less than, unworthy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into helplessness whenever I perceive myself as alone and/or don’t know what to do and in this I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to trust myself that I am able to help myself or find help.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I will not know how to do something and have no one to ask for help. I realize that this fear is completely irrational and unnecessary. When and as I see myself fearing not knowing how to do something and having no one to ask for help – I stop and I breathe. Instead I direct myself here in the breath and see what I can do and how I can expand myself and learn something new.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge/see/perceive myself as less than when I don’t know (how to do) something. I realize that what one knows/can do does not define one’s value as who one is as Life. When and as I see myself judging/seeing/perceiving myself as less than when I don’t know (how to do) something – I stop and I breathe. Instead I direct myself in the breath as an equal and take such an opportunity to learn something new and expand myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I will not be able to overcome what I am doing/what I have to do and fail and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word failure as something bad and define myself according to it whenever I don’t succeed, instead of realizing that failure always happen when doing things and/or learning something new where I can expand and perfect myself and learn to be more self-directive. When and as I see myself fearing not knowing what to do/failing/not being able to do something successfully – I stop ad I breathe. Instead I direct myself here in the breath and I commit myself to take such opportunities to learn and expand myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define/see/perceive being alone and not knowing what to do as a shameful failure, instead of embracing it as an opportunity to expand myself and learn something new.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge/define myself as incapable of finding friends and feel ashamed, less than, sad and unworthy when I am alone, instead of taking the opportunity to be with myself and enjoy myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define people who immediately know what to do as capable and others as incapable and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself and my skills/capabilities to others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to immediately go into inferiority when I see someone knowing something I don’t/knowing what to do when I don’t. I realize that I can never stand equal to others as long as I separate myself through comparing myself to others. When and as I see myself comparing myself and what I do/know to others – I stop and I breathe. Instead I stand here in the breath as an equal and direct myself in common sense without comparison.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define/see/perceive people who are alone as unhappy. I realize that this is because I defined and connected aloneness with unhappiness within myself. When and as I see myself defining/connecting aloneness with unhappiness – I stop and I breathe. Instead I stay here in the breath.

I commit myself to not give into helplessness whenever I find myself alone or without help but instead take the opportunity to expand myself and learn something new.

Day 20 - Relationship points: fear and anxiety

How do I experience fear and anxiety?
I fear the future, fear of not having enough money, fear of not knowing what to do, fear of not having anyone to help me. Fear of being rejected by everyone.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into fear and anxiety when thinking about ending my relationship with her and not being/living with her.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect aloneness to fear and anxiety where I picture myself living alone in a small apartment and having no friends and no one to talk to/hang out with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect aloneness to sadness, sorrow, depression, failure.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to imagine how the future could be like if I live with her and if I don’t and to compare it in my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the future by thinking about how the future could be like if I am alone and not with her.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to trust myself that I am able to take care of myself no matter what.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I will not have enough money someday in the future.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I will not know what to do.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to trust myself that I will always find a practical solution for my problems.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I will have no one to help me and in this I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to trust myself that I will always be able to either help myself or find help.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that all will reject me and I will be alone until I die.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide behind my partner by not taking complete self-responsibility to stand as self-sufficient and self-fulfilling human being as Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse my partner by letting her do things for me that I can do myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be too lazy and uninterested to direct and move myself here in self-responsibility, but instead rather letting my partner do things for me and taking care of me.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to do things for myself and take care of myself alone.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect having a partner to secure and safe future.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to secure my future through my partner instead of taking self-responsibility for myself and trusting myself that I am able to live effectively myself alone, without the help of my partner.

I commit myself to take complete self-responsibility for myself and not rely on others but take care of me myself alone.

Day 19 - Relationship points: aloneness

How do I experience aloneness?
I define aloneness as not having a girl (partner) to live with. When alone I desire to have/be with my partner that would understand me, accept me and enjoy being with me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire/wish/want to be in a relationship/agreement with a partner who would understand me/accept me and enjoy being with me, instead of realizing that I have to understand me through self-honesty, that I have to accept me as life an enjoy myself here in the physical.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to be in an agreement/relationship with her out of fear of loss.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define/connect aloneness with sadness, failure, depression, fear and anxiety.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define aloneness as not having a girl/partner to live with. I realize that I am alone all the time because the presence of someone else that is with me does not change or define me as who I actually really am here in the physical, because I only imagine aloneness/togetherness in my mind where I define this aloneness/togetherness through polarity and separation which is all an illusion because in actuality we always stand alone and yet we are together.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define aloneness as the opposite polarity of togetherness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel depressed, sad, anxious and go into fear whenever I think of being alone, not being in a relationship/agreement with her or anyone.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to be in a relationship/agreement with her/anyone out of fear of survival and not having enough money.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to trust myself that I am able to get/have enough money to survive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that I need her/my partner/others in order to survive and enjoy myself.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to trust myself that I am able to take care of myself no matter what.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to be in an agreement/relationship with her out of fear of losing and not having any friends.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I do not need her/anyone to help me to get to know new people and have friends.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I don’t need friends/other people in order to stop feeling alone and accept me, understand me and enjoy myself here in the physical. I realize that I have created the emotions of aloneness, non-acceptance and non-understanding myself and so I stop these emotions and give me back to myself as life to be self-sufficient and self-fulfilling and enjoy myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear stopping/not being in a relationship with her and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect all the emotions/feelings to the memories of being with her and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect and define myself according to this memories/feelings/emotions that I have about her.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear stop defining myself through the memories/feelings about her, thinking that I will lose myself and who I am, instead of realizing that I will not lose myself but only free myself from the self-enslavement/limitation I created for myself by defining myself through these memories/feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define her as something ‘more than’ just because I have more memories and good feelings attached to her.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look at people according to my memories about them instead of simply being here and accepting everyone equally.

I commit myself to stop defining aloneness/togetherness as a polarity within me where being alone is bad/sad and being together is good/happy/fun.

I commit myself to stand alone and yet together with all that is here as one as equal and be self-sufficient and self-fulfilling.

I commit myself to investigate and remove all ideas/beliefs that I am not self-sufficient and self-fulfilling and I commit myself to always enjoy myself here in the breath no matter what and direct myself within common sense and towards what is best for all.

Day 18 - Relationship points: loneliness

I fear not having an agreement with X because we support each other practically and because with her I feel peaceful, safe, secure and comfortable.

Why do I feel peaceful?
We don't fight. I don't experience emotions of loneliness, aloneness, fear, anxiety, helplessness, lostness.

How do I experience loneliness?
I define loneliness as having no one to be/talk/do things with. When lonely I get the want to talk to or do something with someone. I think I am missing out life/living, I think others enjoy themselves more than me and I am jealous.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the lonely character when I have no one to talk to/be with/do things with. I realize that with this I compromise myself by going into my mind where I think about others and what they are doing and what experiences they are having that I would also like to experience with them while I actually miss what is here by being in my mind. When and as I see myself going into the lonely character when I have no one to talk to/be with/do things with – I stop and I breathe. Instead I focus on moving and directing myself here in the breath in the physical within common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think about others/friends and what they are doing when I have no one to talk to/be with/do things with and compare their experience to my experience. I realize that within this I fuck myself in the mind instead of simply being here in the breath. When and as I see myself thinking about others/friends and what they are doing when I have no one to talk to/be with/do things with and comparing their experience and my experience – I stop and I breathe. Instead I focus on moving and directing myself here in the breath in the physical within common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself to define being around friends/familiar people as more fun/better than being alone or with strangers and within this create the opposite polarity of loneliness. When and as I see myself defining being around friends/familiar people as more fun/better than being alone or with strangers – I stop and I breathe. Instead I stop existing within the polarity of being alone/being with friends and enjoy myself here in the breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create the want/need/desire to talk/do something with someone within and as me. I realize that within this I create the belief and emptiness within myself where I look for something outside of myself to fulfill me. When and as I see myself wanting/needing/desiring to talk/do something with someone – I stop and I breathe. Instead I stay here in the breath give back to myself that which I have separated myself from.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that I am missing out life/living when I have no one to talk to/be with/do things with. I realize that I don’t need anyone to enjoy myself. When and as I see myself thinking/believing/perceiving that I am missing out life/living when I have no one to talk to/be with/do things with – I stop and I breathe. Instead I enjoy myself here in the breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare my life to the life of my friends and others and to think/believe/perceive that others enjoy themselves more than me and so create jealousy within myself. When and as I see myself comparing my life to the life of my friends and others and think/believe/perceive that others enjoy themselves more and become jealous – I stop and I breathe. Instead I stay here in the breath and do not compare my life to others and commit myself to work towards a solution that will allow all to have an enjoyable life in oneness and equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into anxiety within the thought ‘I am alone, there’s no one I can talk to/do things with’.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect/define the word aloneness as something negative and connect it with anxiety and depression.

I commit myself to no accept and allow myself to exist within the character of aloneness and I commit myself to investigate what I am actually separating myself from when desiring to not be alone and give it back to myself to stand self-sufficient and self-fulfilling.

Day 16 - Worrying about my partner and fear of loss

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to worry and think about how my partner feels when I am not with her, where I imagine my partner being sad and so creating the sadness within myself where I feel sorry for my partner, instead of simply stopping myself and being here in the breath. I realize that with this I compromise myself. When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to worry and think about how my partner feels when I am not with her, where I imagine my partner being sad and so creating the sadness within myself - I stop and I breathe. Instead I stay here in the breath and do not go into imagination and emotions but stabilize myself here in the physical through breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into a desire to call my partner to see how she is because I wish/want/desire to make her happy and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to condition my happiness with the happiness of my partner, instead of realizing that I am myself responsible for how I feel and that happiness is an energetic feeling that is the opposite polarity of sadness where if I do not stop participating in this energy, I will constantly exist/abuse myself within the happiness/sadness polarity, instead of being simply here within the breath in the physical. When and as I see myself conditioning my feelings with the feelings of my partner and going into a desire to call my partner to see how she is because I wish/want/desire to make her happy - I stop and I breathe. Instead I bring myself back here into the physical and do not accept and allow myself to be moved by energetic feelings/emotion/desires but instead apply common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge/define myself as the cause of another's/my partner's feelings/emotions and to feel guilty. I realize that each one is self-responsible to stop one's own emotions and feelings. When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to judge/define myself as the cause of another's/my partner's feelings/emotions and to feel guilty - I stop and I breathe. Instead I bring myself here and breathe and use self-forgiveness and self-corrective application to stop all self-judgment and direct myself within common sense and what is practically best for all.

I commit myself to no more accept and allow myself to subdue myself to fear and act out of fear of loosing the relationship with my partner/another that was an illusion in my mind anyway and I commit myself to stick to what is common sense and practically best for all.

I commit myself to investigate and remove all my attachments and fears towards my partner/others and take complete self-responsibility for myself so that I can stand within practical common sense and what is best for all and actually create practical agreements that are based on what is practically best for all and not on fear and self-limitation.

I commit myself to not hold myself inside the stupidity loops of fear and self-limitation but expand myself through self-forgiveness and self-correction whenever I see myself limiting myself with fears/emotions/feelings/beliefs.

I commit myself to stand as an example that relationships based on fear and self-limitation are just an illusion of the mind that we can remove with self-forgiveness and self-correction and replace them with actual supportive agreements that are based on common sense and what is practically best for all.

Day 15 - Partner comfort/safety

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel and look for comfort within my partner instead of being comfortable with myself. When and as I see myself wishing/wanting/desiring comfort from my partner - I stop and I breathe. Instead I make myself comfortable here in the breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for safety and safe future within my partner and my partners family. I realize that by planning and counting on my partner for safety and safe/comfortable future I abdicate my self-responsibility to take care for my own safety/comfort. When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to look for safety and safe future within my partner and my partners family - I stop and I breathe. Instead I look at where do I still don't take complete self-responsibility for myself and I commit myself to take self-responsibility for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that I am unable to take care of myself and my own safety/comfort. I realize that I compromise myself with irrational fears and beliefs. When and as I see myself thinking/believing/perceiving that I am unable to take care of myself and my own safety/comfort - I stop and I breathe. Instead I stop my thoughts/beliefs/fears with breath and bring myself here and take self-responsibility for my own safety/comfort where I direct myself in common sense and self-trust and stand equal and one with safety and comfort.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear taking complete self-responsibility for myself by stopping to rely/count on others/my partner to take care of me. I realize that I compromise/limit myself and others by not taking responsibility for myself. When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to fear taking complete self-responsibility for myself I stop and I breathe. Instead I bring myself back here with breath and I commit myself to direct myself and take self-responsibility within common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rely on others to guide me/show me what to do/show me what is common sense/best for all and how to decide, instead of being self-honest with self and clearing myself from any reactions and making my decisions according to what is best for all as for me and standing by my decision. When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to rely on others to guide me/show me what to do/show me what is common sense/best for all and how to decide - I stop and breathe. Instead I commit myself to clear myself from reactions/fears and make my decisions according to common sense and what is practically best for all as for me and stand by my decision.

Day 13 - Gamer character

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define me as a gamer and think/believe/perceive that a gamer is who I actually really am, instead of realizing that this is just a character I created for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel proud that I am good at playing games when someone is interested in my gamer character and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the gamer character as a way to define/compare myself to others and make myself feel 'more (special) than' others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use my gamer character and games as a way to escape the reality of this world where I forget about everything and focus only on my energetic experiences while playing a game where I look for/wish/want/desire to create feelings of excitement/adrenalin/adventure/accomplishment and be the winner, instead of stopping the energy addictions to feelings/emotions and being here in the breath as self-expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into excitement and memories whenever I think about playing games, instead of realizing that with this I support my energetic addiction to the positive feelings I create for myself while playing games.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to imagine/daydream about (playing) games game consoles in order to create the feeling of excitement in myself, instead of realizing that with this I continue my addiction to the feeling of excitement instead of being here in the breath and not accepting and allowing myself to go into backchat/daydreaming about games and game consoles.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the gamer character whenever I imagine/see my computer/gaming console where I bring up the memories of experiences/feelings I have connected with them, instead of staying here in the breath and not accepting and allowing myself to go into memories/feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to experience the excitement of playing/getting a new game/gaming console instead of realizing that I have to stop this energetic addiction through which I limit and abuse myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create the feeling of excitement by watching pictures/movies of games/gaming consoles on the internet and imagining how I would play them/use them and how I would feel and thus already creating the feelings/experience of excitement as the gaming character in my mind, instead of stopping myself with breath and not going into feelings/wishes/wants and stopping the addiction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for satisfaction in games in the form of feelings of excitement, accomplishment and winning, instead of removing the energetic addictions of positive feelings and being satisfied with myself here in the physical in every breath as I move and direct myself within common sense and what is best for all.

I commit myself to stop my energetic addictions as the gamer character by using self-forgiveness and self-correction to stop myself and stay here in the breath, directing self within common sense and what is best for all Life.

Day 12 - Comedian character

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into a comedian character in order to bring myself and others into a happy mood. I realize that 'happy mood' is the polarity feeling of the 'unhappy mood' which are both feeling/emotions that I don't need at all in order to enjoy myself here in the physical. When and as I see myself wanting/wishing/desiring to be and bring others to 'happy mood' - I stop and I breathe. Instead I forgive myself for existing/going into the mind polarity of positive/negative feelings/emotions and simply stay here in the breath and enjoy moving/directing myself within/as the physical within common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that I use the comedian character to suppress the negative emotions I am in by changing them into positive feelings and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the comedian character as a suppression method so that I wouldn't have to face/deal/take responsibility for my negative emotions. When and as I see myself going into/being in a comedian character in order to suppress the negative emotions and create positive feelings - I stop and I breathe. Instead I investigate the cause of my negative emotions and I remove it with self-forgiveness and self-correction and I stay here in the breath and enjoy moving/directing myself within/as the physical within common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that I use the comedian character every time I feel embarrassed/'less than' as a defense mechanism to make fun out of myself where others can laugh at me and I see/perceive myself as the 'winner' as I can say that this was my intention, while I actually did that so that others wouldn't laugh about my embarrassment/inferiority because then I would feel even more embarrassed/inferior. When and as I see myself using the comedian character as a defense mechanism when I feel embarrassed/'less than' - I stop and I breathe. Instead I look at the point of embarrassment/feeling 'less than' and I remove the point with self-forgiveness and self-correction and I stay here in the breathe enjoying moving/directing myself within/as the physical within common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the comedian character to 'break the silence' when I am with people and nobody talks because I feel awkward as I am afraid that others will judge me when in fact I judge myself and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel awkward when I am silent when being with other people. When and as I see myself wanting to use the comedian character to 'break the silence' when I am with other people - I stop and I breathe. Instead I look at where do I judge myself for being silent and I remove the points with self-forgiveness and self-correction and stay here in the breathe enjoying moving/directing myself within/as the physical within common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into backchat of self-judgment when I am silent while with other people and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge/define/see/perceive myself as a boring, weird, stupid, lame, inferior, limited, mentally challenged, less than, unsocial, outsider, unaccepted, loner, loser, 'special in a bad way' person when I am silent with other people. When and as I see myself going into backchat judging myself when being silent with other people - I stop and I breathe. Instead I apply self-forgiveness and self correction for every point that comes up and I stay here in the breath and enjoy myself moving/directing myself here in the physical within common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the comedian character as a way to be accepted/liked by other people and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that I have to make myself be liked/accepted by other people instead of just me accepting/liking myself. When and as I see myself using the comedian character as a way to be accepted/liked by other people - I stop and I breathe. Instead I accept and like myself as Life here in thy physical as one and equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide behind laughter whenever I feel embarrassed or find something embarrassing. When and as I see myself hiding behind laughter when I feel embarrassed or find something embarrassing - I stop and I breathe. Instead I look at what is the cause of my embarrassment and I remove the point with self-forgiveness and self-correction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to laugh at and make fun out of things I find unpractical/noncommonsensical and think/believe/perceive that I can do nothing about them. I realize that this is how I abdicate my self-responsibility towards standing as a solution. When and as I see myself laughing at and make fun out of things I find unpractical/noncommonsensical - I stop and I breathe. instead I investigate the point in common sense and find/pointing out/stand for practical solutions according to what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see/define/perceive myself as a comedian/funny person and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that being a comedian/funny person is a part of my personality as who I really am. I realize that a comedian/funny person character is just a character that I created for myself and does not define me as who I really am as Life here. When and as I see myself seeing/defining/perceiving myself through the comedian/funny person character/personality and thinking/believing that this is who I actually am - I stop and I breathe. Instead I stop defining/seeing myself as a comedian/funny character and stay here in the breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that my personality(-ies)/characters are me as who I really am, instead of realizing that I learned/created/adopted my characters/personalities that have nothing to do with who I actually really am as Life here, meaning I only make up/carry/hide behind characters/personalities in order to not have to face me and be self-responsible for who I actually really am as Life here in the physical in oneness and equality. When and as I see myself thinking/believing/perceiving that the character/personality I am in is actually who I really am - I stop and I breathe. Instead I observe and investigate how/why I have created the character I am in and I stop defining myself according to the character and remove it with self-forgiveness and self-correction and stay here in the breathe, enjoying directing myself withing/as the physical in common sense and according to what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that others speak about me and who I really am when they judge/compare/define me/speak about me as a personality, while in fact they only speak about my characters/personalities and project their own characters/personalities onto me, meaning they don't actually speak/talk about who I really actually am here as Life in the physical, they only show me my characters/personalities and their character/personalities that are not real and can be removed. Therefore judging myself/others and their character/personalities is pointless and unnecessary as this characters/personalities do not represent beings as Life as who we really are, but only who we accepted and allowed ourselves to become through the illusion of the energy of the mind/feelings/emotions and so this characters/personalities can/will be removed by ourselves or by death and there is no point in waiting for death as then it is too late as we no longer actually exist here in the physical and Life can only actually exist here in the physical as the physical is superior to the mind and everything else in every way and so everything else is just an illusion that can end in any moment.

Therefore, instead of judging/comparing my character/personalities and those of others - I stop and I breathe. I commit myself to not judge/blame characters/personalities but stay here in the breath and stop and let go of my characters/personalities through writing, self-forgiveness, self-correction so that I can stand as the physical character in every breath and support others in removing their character so that we can all be/become Life here in the physical and live in common sense and according to what is best for all.

I commit myself to stop and let go of all my characters/personalities and to only accept and allow myself to be that what I really am as Life here in the physical in oneness and equality.

Day 11 - Working character

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge/define/see/perceive myself as 'more than'/'less than' according to the work I do and how 'good/bad' I do it. I realize that with this I try to define my value and compare myself with others through the work I do. When and as I see myself defining my value through the work I do - I stop and I breathe. Instead I stay here in the breath and I commit myself to stop all self-definitions through the work I do and all comparison/competition.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into/exist within and as annoyance and anger when someone doesn't help me/act in a way I would like/see/perceive as best/practical. I realize that expecting/anticipating anything is a waste of time as I only imagine it in my mind and then create negative emotions if I don't get it/achieve it. When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to go into/exist within and as annoyance and anger when someone doesn't help me in a way I would like/see/perceive as best/practical - I stop and I breathe. Instead I remain here in the breath and I commit myself to stop all anticipations/expectations and I move myself here according to common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into annoyance/hurry when I work on something, where I go into my mind and think about the goal I want to achieve and think about how to quickly get there and so compromise myself with thoughts/emotions, instead of simply being here in the breath, doing and enjoying the work I do. Within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into boredom/resistance when I work as I think about other things I could do where I would create 'better' energetic experiences for myself, instead of realizing that I am compromising myself by going into backchat and looking for a positive energetic experience, instead of breathing and being here, doing the work I do and enjoying myself being one and equal with the physical. I commit myself to investigate and stop all the backchat/emotions/feelings I create for myself while I work in thy physical to allow myself to simply be here in the breath and not in the mind/emotions/feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to worry about how long it will take to finish a job and if I will make it in time. I realize that within this worrying I compromise myself by distracting myself with thoughts/emotions and so not allowing myself to be effective. When and as I see myself worrying about how long it will take to finish a job and if I will make it in time - I stop and I breathe. Instead I stay here in the breath and I commit myself to work towards being effective in every breath and not worry about time as that is pointless.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into anger/resistance when someone asks me to help him/her do something. I realize that I get annoyed as I don't want to take responsibility for the work that needs to be done. When and as I see myself going into anger/resistance when someone asks me to help him/her - I stop and I breathe. Instead I stay here in the breath and I commit myself to stop all reactions and move myself here in self-responsibility and common sense towards what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define/see/perceive work as something hard/not fun/something I have to do, instead of realizing that with this definitions I limit and compromise myself by being in my mind instead of here breathing. When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to define/see/perceive work as something hard/not fun/something I have to do - I stop and I breathe. Instead I stay here in the breath and direct myself in the moment in common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear how others will judge my work, instead of realizing that I judge/compare myself through other people's eyes. When and as I see myself fearing that others will judge my work - I stop and I breathe. Instead I do not judge and compare myself through other people's eyes and I accept myself as an equal and I commit myself to investigate and stop all judgments and comparison.

Day 10 - Being silent character

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as a silent/quiet person. I realize that this is a character/personality I have created for myself out of fear of speaking to others and embarrassing myself or  being rejected and laughed at, so that I wouldn't have to take self-responsibility for my fears. When and as I see myself going into the 'being silent character/personality' - I stop and I breathe. Instead I stay in the breath and I commit myself to look at where am I still allowing myself to hide/compromise myself within the 'being quiet' character.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define being quite as smart/wise and connect it to the saying/belief that wise people don't speak. I realize that through this I try to justify my silence by trying to make myself feel more than others. When and as I see myself defining my silence as smart/wise through the belief that wise people don't speak - I stop and I breathe. Instead I do not compromise myself through silence and allow myself to speak and express myself in the breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to examine/judge/and compare myself while I speak. I realize that I do this because I am afraid of embarrassing myself. When and as I see myself being afraid that I will embarrass myself - I stop and I breathe. Instead I stay here in the breath and I do not judge/define myself as less than/more than no matter how others react.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to maintain/raise my value/reputation when I speak. I realize that only I give value to myself and that valuing self through others is pointless. When and as I see myself trying to maintain/raise my value/reputation when I speak - I stop and I breathe. Instead I accept myself as an equal here in every breath, before and as I speak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I will loose value if I say something stupid. I realize that I try to give value to myself through others whether they judge what I say as smart or stupid. When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to fear that I will loose value if I say something stupid - I stop and I breathe. Instead I accept myself as an equal before and as I speak and I speak common sense and what is best for all here in the breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into self-judgment and fear the moment before I speak. I realize that this is a pointless pattern of irrational fear I created from the belief that I can be less than others/ashamed and rejected if I say something 'wrong'. When and as I see myself going into self-judgment and fear before speaking - I stop and I breathe. I commit myself to not compromise myself anymore with silence when I want to speak and I do not judge myself but accept myself as an equal as I speak, no matter how others react.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into self-judgment/comparison and fear when I am in a group of people/strangers. I realize that I fear that I'll be rejected because I don't accept myself. When and as I see myself going into self-judgment/comparison and fear when I am in a group of people/strangers - I stop and I breathe. Instead I stay here in the breath and I accept myself as an equal no matter what others say about me and I realize that strangers do not exist because we all know each other as we see each other and everything else is of the mind and so no real because what is in the mind does not define us as who we are as Life here in the physical.

2011 - Digging holes on Desteni Farm

There's always something to do on Desteni Farm. Among other things, I'm helping to raise pols for a new fence. For that we obviously had to dig some holes first where wooden poles will be placed and fixed with concrete. So I used a shovel and an iron pole. There were sticks in the ground where the poles should be, so I first made a cut in the ground from every side in a size of the shovel and took out the dirt. The soil was quite hard so I had to jump on the shovel and use the force of my whole body to make it go all the way into the ground. Then I had a square hole in the ground and I had to make it deeper, around half a meter deep. For this I used the iron pole which is quite heavy and thin, so when I smashed it into the ground it sinked in and by twisting it and moving it around in circles I loosened the soil, so I could then easily pick it up with the shovel. I repeated the process 5 or 6 times and then the hole was done and ready for the wooden pole to be put in. I was probably working for about 15-20 minutes to make just one hole and I made quite a few. It was quite hot also and I rested in-between to catch my breath because I'm not used to working physically. There are a lot of fences around the farm and people had to dug hundreds of holes for them. Then you also have to actually mix the concrete which is even harder and put the poles in and fix them with it and then you can start putting the fence up. The machines would make this process obviously a lot faster and easier but they cost a lot of money. So imagine how hard people have to work to build everything that we use today. Roads, houses, sewer canals, railways... whole cities. It is almost impossible to make anything like that alone. I say almost because you would need decades to just make one simple house with everything in it, the sewage, electricity, water and everything. One could obviously use all sorts of machines to help self with, but realize, who made the machines? How long would it take to learn and design and make all the machines needed to make the construction of a simple house easier? You wouldn't do it in a lifetime!

So people like to justify the existence of private property by saying: "I worked for it! I earned my money and I worked for it really hard and so it is mine and no one is allowed to use it without my permission or even come close!"
If we look at the rich people of this world and see how many things they have while most of others have nothing, we realize that they never really worked for it. They just bought it and are now making it exclusive to themselves while they probably don't even realize that a whole army of people was needed to physically design and construct what they have just for themselves. So realize, only what you made with your own two hands can be your personal property and not even that, because you didn't make the material, it came from the Earth. And people like to think that they own the earth while it's the other way around. What we give is what we'll get and what do we give to the Earth? Have you ever considered this? What do we give to the animals and plants? What do we give to each other?

We designed the whole capitalist system on the idea that we can have private property and that this is the basic human right. Look at how many people have nothing and are starving to death, because less than 10% of the world population 'owns' almost everything on the planet. And when we say that private property is a human right we all support this vast suffering of everyone that is not in that rich 10% (that also have the privilege to read this blog).

When we remove the ego of self and stand as One and Equal to All that is HERE, we realize how simple the solution is to our problems. When we will be able to agree that we are all one and equal, then we'll also realize that we all have to work together in the way that is Best for All because that is Common Sense. And we will all live in Heaven on Earth. There is enough of everything for everyone, just not allays at the same time. That doesn't mean that you won't be able to use and enjoy the things that you already do, everyone will be able to do it and even much more, but obviously there is no need for one person to have everything just for self when one can share it with others in a meaningful, best-for-all way. This will all be integrated into the Equal Money System. So don't be all smart and hateful towards something that you don't even understand. Educate yourself and support the solutions for all Life NOW that you have a chance, maybe tomorrow you'll already stand in the shoes of those who have nothing at all (which is most of the world population, if you still haven't noticed).

2011 - No time? Make your time with breath!

Sometimes I find myself in a situation where there is so much to do that I don't even know where to start or what to do next. Then I think about it and worry how am I going to do it all and then I feel sorry for myself and do all sorts of unnecessary mind-thinking activities.

But the solution to this is simple. First, I realize that things that need to be done need to be done anyways, if I worry about them or not, so why worry at all? I stop all the thoughts, worries and I focus on the physical here-now moment and my breath. Breathing and being physically here in the moment, without thoughts, is all I need to do to get all the time in the world that I need. I realized that obviously I cannot do everything at once because I only exist one breath at a time, which means I can only do what I can in one breath. But that is enough. So if things seem complicated I just write all the tasks I need to do and I arrange them in order of importance. In that way I cannot forget about something so no worries needed. Then I just start doing the tasks one at the time, staying here in the breath in the physical, with no worries or future projections, fears etc. This way I'm as effective as I can be and I know that I'm doing all I can because I don't waste my time with thinking and worrying. So in any case, even if I don't finish all the tasks I wanted to, I don't worry about it at all! Because I know that I did all I physically, practically could, breath by breath. There are only so many breaths in a day so why worry about something that couldn't be done in one day (for example) anyways?

I realized that 'having no time' is no more than an illusion perceived through the mind when we try to do more than we can in one breath. Thus, if I always stay here, breathing, in the moment in the physical, I will never experience the 'lack of time' because time does not exist in the here-moment of breath. It is just me with all the time I could ever want.