Day 13 - Gamer character

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define me as a gamer and think/believe/perceive that a gamer is who I actually really am, instead of realizing that this is just a character I created for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel proud that I am good at playing games when someone is interested in my gamer character and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the gamer character as a way to define/compare myself to others and make myself feel 'more (special) than' others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use my gamer character and games as a way to escape the reality of this world where I forget about everything and focus only on my energetic experiences while playing a game where I look for/wish/want/desire to create feelings of excitement/adrenalin/adventure/accomplishment and be the winner, instead of stopping the energy addictions to feelings/emotions and being here in the breath as self-expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into excitement and memories whenever I think about playing games, instead of realizing that with this I support my energetic addiction to the positive feelings I create for myself while playing games.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to imagine/daydream about (playing) games game consoles in order to create the feeling of excitement in myself, instead of realizing that with this I continue my addiction to the feeling of excitement instead of being here in the breath and not accepting and allowing myself to go into backchat/daydreaming about games and game consoles.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the gamer character whenever I imagine/see my computer/gaming console where I bring up the memories of experiences/feelings I have connected with them, instead of staying here in the breath and not accepting and allowing myself to go into memories/feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to experience the excitement of playing/getting a new game/gaming console instead of realizing that I have to stop this energetic addiction through which I limit and abuse myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create the feeling of excitement by watching pictures/movies of games/gaming consoles on the internet and imagining how I would play them/use them and how I would feel and thus already creating the feelings/experience of excitement as the gaming character in my mind, instead of stopping myself with breath and not going into feelings/wishes/wants and stopping the addiction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for satisfaction in games in the form of feelings of excitement, accomplishment and winning, instead of removing the energetic addictions of positive feelings and being satisfied with myself here in the physical in every breath as I move and direct myself within common sense and what is best for all.

I commit myself to stop my energetic addictions as the gamer character by using self-forgiveness and self-correction to stop myself and stay here in the breath, directing self within common sense and what is best for all Life.

Day 6 - Energetic quarrel games, manipulations

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame one for manipulating me, instead of realizing that I am equally responsible and so have to correct myself to not allow any kind of manipulation anymore.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with anger and take it personal when someone blames me or tries to manipulate me.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to stand up for myself and be self-directive and to want/need/desire others to give me direction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into fear when X tells me that something horrible/dangerous can happen if I do not talk/speak/interact with X.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to be afraid that I will be responsible for X and what X does if I don't comply with X, instead of realizing that we are all self-responsible and that we all manifest our own consequences.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that using another persons words and phrases to validate/impose one's own point of view or what one wants is self-deception and abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try and win an energetic quarrel game instead of stopping to participate in it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to have the last say in an energetic quarrel game instead of stopping to participate in it.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I can only stop an energetic quarrel game by actually stopping to participate in it completely.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to stop participating in an energetic quarrel game completely, even when I see/realize it for what it is. When and as I see myself or another being energetic and making an energetic quarrel game - I stop and I breathe. Instead I do not participate in it and I stop talking and remove myself to not allow abuse.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to trust myself that I am able to stop participating in an energetic quarrel game.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with anger/annoyance when one makes sly remarks or tries to provoke a reaction from me by making me feel a certain way. When and as I see myself reacting or another trying to provoke a reaction by making a sly remark - I stop and I breathe. I do not participate in the energy game and I do not speak and if remarks continue I remove myself to not allow abuse.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I am equally responsible for/supporting the abuse if I participate and do not stop and remove myself from an energetic game regardless of whether I am making or receiving a provocation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into fear whenever X sends me a message/walks into the bedroom/sits besides me and stares at me with backchat.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that someone starring at me always has backchat.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel scared/insecure when someone is starring at me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel scared when X is starring at me and to fear that X is building up anger and will react towards me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to imagine/anticipate an attack/manipulation from X and think/believe that X will manipulate me whenever X sends me a message/walks into the bedroom/sits besides me and stares at me with backchat and so go into fear, instead of simply being here breathing and not allowing myself to participate in energetic games.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with anger and go into shame and take it personal when someone makes fun of me and laughs at me, instead of not blaming/judging/comparing myself and staying here in the breath.

Day 4 - Competition / Comparison

When playing basketball or some other sports I often experience fears that come from comparison and competition.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see/perceive playing basketball or other sports as a competition where I either win or lose, instead of realizing that this is an energetic mind polarity game where I compare myself with others and according to that define myself as either more than or less than. Whenever I see myself comparing myself and competing with others where I fear of loosing and being 'less than' - I stop and I breathe. Instead I accept myself and all others as equal regardless of the result or win/lose, better/worse comparisons and definitions. I play the game for fun and recreation and I accept myself and others as equal even when I miss, make mistakes or are not in the same level as others in terms of any kind of criteria.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than whenever I miss, make a mistake, instead of realizing that missing/making a mistake does not define me as who I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into fear/nervousness of missing/making a mistake whenever I throw the ball/make my play, instead of realizing that it does not matter if I succeed or fail as this does not define me as 'more than' or 'less than' in any way. Whenever I see myself going into fear/nervousness when it is my turn to make my play - I stop and breathe. Instead I do not compare myself and I don't care/think about what the result of my play will be, I simply enjoy myself here in my body while playing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that others will make angry/spiteful comments when I miss/make a mistake. I realize that missing/making a mistake does not define me as less than in any way. Whenever I see myself fearing missing/making a mistake and feeling 'less than' - I stop and I breathe. Instead I stay here in the breath and do not go into back chat and comparison and enjoy moving in my physical body.


Comparing myself to other men:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself to other men and compete with them to 'prove' myself as better or equal because I don't want to feel less than and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that girls will not like me if I am not equal or 'better than' other man. I realize that I create my own judgment of being less than when I start to compare myself to other men and that wanting to be liked by other women comes from the desire to be able to have sex with any woman. When and as I see myself comparing myself to other men - I stop and I breathe. Instead I accept myself and other men as equals. When and as I see myself desiring to be able to have sex with any woman - I stop and I breathe. Instead I stop the sex backchat and I do no participate in arousing myself with thoughts/pictures.

2011 - Gaming Reborn in an Equal Money System

Lots of people like to play computer games these days, me included, but this kind of entertainment is right now only available to a very small elite group of either rich people (compared to an average human being on Earth) or their children. Speaking from my experience, I started to play games because I found them to be interesting from the perspective of doing things that cannot be done in the real world and of course because of winning. We as humans are completely brainwashed with the idea of competition and are consequently addicted to the energetic experience that we allow to exit inside of ourselves when we win or lose, thus seeking the experience of winning all the time. This energy addiction is integrated into every part of our society as competition (schools, companies, nationalism, sports…) and of course also gaming. If you look at how games are designed, they always have a system of competition and/or winning integrated into them because this is what a competitive human being will recognize as familiar and interesting. Competition of course is very violent in nature and so are also most of the games, with lots of shooting, killing and destruction. It is interesting how obvious it is in games that we as human beings are completely preprogrammed and brainwashing into believing that the main point of life is competition and winning because have a look: games are designed as virtual realities which means; designers can create any kind of world/simulation that they want and are in this not limited to the limitations of the current world systems as they exist (and as we allow them to exist), yet almost every game is designed and integrated with the same systems of competition, war and/or capitalism that we have in our reality. As if there is no other way of existing. This can only show us one thing: we are completely brainwashed! We can say that in the end, we are all religious from the perspective of believing that competition makes us better and that survival improves our ego. We can see – if we self-honestly look at the condition of our REAL world – that this is in fact not so. And as long as we don’t change our behavior and align it to the principle of what is Best for All in Oneness and Equality, we live in self-deception.

In an Equal Money System gaming will obviously change a lot. First of all; games will not be designed to sell and bring profit, instead they will be designed more as interactive pieces of art or as tools where one will be able to play a game/simulation and create and self-express through it. Or just as some fun idea that one will come up with and share with others in a form of an interactive game. Of course all games will be free or at least available for a very small price because as I said, they won't be made for profit and secondly, you cannot prevent the copying of computer data anyways. If you look at how the gaming companies are trying to do that right now you can see how ridiculous it is and how it is impossible to prevent games from being pirated, but they have to do it because of the profit. If a game doesn't bring profit it is immediately discontinued. There will be no need for profit in an Equal Money System and thus everything will improve immediately and dramatically since people will not be forced into doing things from the starting point of making profit – which also suppresses the unconditional expression of human beings. You can see some of this today in gaming where certain games allow/encourage mods (modifications) to be designed from fans for free. This kind of games usually get high amount of very interesting and innovative free content designed from people who do it for fun, which makes this games a lot more interesting to interact with.

Also computer games will become available to All Human Beings on Earth within an Equal Money System because the e-quality of the system will provide everyone with a Dignified Life and thus we will all live like millionaires. Because realize, when money will not dictate how things are done – we will be able to design and create things the best way possible with the highest quality. This for instance means we will be able to provide every Human Being with a high speed optical internet connection, which also means that we will no longer require a big/expensive PC or a TV console or other hardware to play games because there will be a powerful server for this purpose (with more processing power that one could ever have in a PC) that we will just connect to through the internet and do everything there. We will just receive the picture of the game (or anything else we would like to do) onto our TV screen and that’s it. Similar to how the OnLive gaming service works today if you are familiar with it. Of course if and where the hardware will be required, it will be provided and accessible to everyone equally and designed in the best quality possible to date. Because again remember, money in an Equal Money System will not be a limitation, it will be a tool that will guarantee everyone a Dignified Life by firstly providing basic needs and secondly also providing everyone with an equal opportunity to have access to the best quality luxury products that are now only available to very rich people of the World. If you haven't noticed, more than half of the world doesn't even have enough food to eat...

So of course in the Equal Money System people will still want to design devices that are just fun to use, similar to how gaming consoles are made today with the motion controls and everything. In such cases people will still buy such hardware if one will find it interesting but overall usefulness and quality of such products will increase dramatically since there will be no profit calculations involved that would prevent this. For example if we look at the Nintendo 3DS that just came out recently – it could have a lot more functions (like also being a phone and a mini personal computer with lots of apps) that it has right now and be built from high quality parts (with the most advanced camera lenses instead of current 0.3 Mega Pixel ones and so on) that would last as long as possible or until the device would be recycled and materials reused for something else. It is obvious how money unnecessarily limits the design possibilities and the quality of any product created today.

Nintendo 3DS - A toy of the super rich elite of the World

I own a Wii console for example and when I look at it I realize how much better it could be designed if profit wasn’t the primary motivation for its existence. For example better speakers would be put into the Wii Remote; best quality materials would be chosen for the housing; we wouldn’t have to charge it through batteries since we already have the technology to charge things on the go through wireless transmission. And as we all know, the main problem in gaming and consoles is always also to provide the most powerful machine for the best graphical performance possible. When manufacturers design the consoles today, they are always limited by money when they put in the CPU, graphic card etc. because they can't afford to put in all the best and get broke. Such limitation will not exist in an Equal Money System.

Why does sex sell?

By the way, did you have a look at any of the E3 this year? Did you see the new console from Nintendo? It's called Wii U and it will have a really bad-ass controller and HD graphics! How cool is that!!?

Wii U will be the TOP brainwashing machine for U in 2012! Don't wait, get distracted with it right now and imagine how cool it will be! - while the Real World gets destroyed... OR stop wasting your time and join the DIP.

Shows like E3 are obviously all about games and game developers that try to brainwash and steal people from each other to gain more customers. What they do in such events is that they try and use the people's excitement and desire for winning and sex - which people create themselves in one's own mind when looking at all the pretty pictures of games - to buy the games. Of course there are also even real prostitutes there sometimes to make people ('gamers') even more instinctive because that's the easiest way of controlling people to buy stuff. Sex sells, brainwashing FTW. The main point here is that people - who fall for all of these pretty pictures and play games all the time - are completely separated from the real world and kept entertained for as long as possible so that we, people on Earth as a whole, can remain slaves to our own mind-fuckedness. It's the same with all entertainment like sports, films, music festivals, parades, theme parks and what not. Have a look:

The only people who can stand up and make a change in the world by doing what is Best for All and ensuring everyone a Dignified Life and stopping all the abuse are people with money, people like us - if you can look at this blog on the internet and have time for games - then you are obviously among the top elite of this world. Just self-honestly look at the facts. And we - the elite of this world - have the money that is needed to change the system, to change the rules. And as long as we will not give a fuck for anything else but only our own entertainment, the World will just get worse and worse and worse until there will be no more imaginary places to run away to left and all that will remain is the shit that we all create together. Wars, pollution, hunger, disease, rape, disaster, abuse...  Let's not wait and destroy everything shall we? Do what's Best for All and support the Equal Money System and have a look at the Desteni'I'Process where we help each other and learn to work together to bring about heaven on Earth. It is possible because we decided it is. Nothing else is relevant. And until we ensure everyone a Dignified Life here on Earth, everything else is a waste of time. If you don't care, if you prefer abuse and your own imaginary world more than what is Best for All Life - then you're in for a big surprise. Because the REAL WORLD will show us what is REAL LIFE and what is a waste of time.
We as human beings here on Earth are not living yet at all, we are just wasting our time, trying to entertain ourselves, while others are suffering and dieing, just because we don't care, because we dont give a fuck about them.

Do you like Duke Nukem the badass? In REALITY, one's ego is one's worst enemy because it prevents one from doing what's Best for All Life by doing only what's best for self. Don't just be an abusive badass, be a practivist that is doing what is Best for All Life! Join the DIP today and earn some serious money!!

"What's the next game going to be like?! How about a movie?! Who will be the next babe I'll try to fuck?! Who is the next dude I'll try to abuse with my big EGO?!"

This is the state of our brain-washedness we all accepted and allowed as ourselves. Time to STOP and wake up! Look around, the real world is in shit! Time to stand up for Life and make this world a place that is Best for All Equally!

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So this is just a glimpse of what will change from the perspective of computer gaming in an Equal Money System. Of course the quality of Life will also improve dramatically for everyone in all other aspects. But looking at self and how each one of us is currently still operating within this world – we see that we have quite some self-honesty and self-corrective education to go through in order to bring about the new world that’s Best for All Life. Thus I invite you to have a look at the Desteni’I’Process online course through which you can prepare and enhance your-self in every way possible (and earn some serious money at the same time) in order to bring the new principle of Life into practice and finally Live as One as Equal with All Life within what is Best for All. Don’t just be the virtual hero in games, be the real Life hero and join us as an equal in this incredible journey of self-realization and self-empowerment through the principle of doing what is Best for All Life.

2011 - Win/Lose games

Today I got frustrated again while playing a game of tennis on the TV console. First I won some then I lost one and I got frustrated because I allowed myself again to go into an experience of "positive" energy when I won which is a polarity and so inevitably I experienced a "negative" energy/feeling when I lost. I have to make myself more aware of this shit.

When and as I see myself participating in thoughts and feelings/emotions of polarity I stop completely and I breathe. I see that it is a mind-fuck energy polarity illusion. I do not accept and allow myself to go into thoughts and feelings/emotions of polarity ever again.

Then I thought about it: what is the point of playing such a game? If the only point of the game is to win by following some rules and if I remove that aspect, what is the point of ever playing such a game? There is no point. It's a waste of time. Win/Lose games are a total waste of time and are potentially dangerous because one can develop a serious mind-fuck of win/lose polarity illusion. That should be the warning on the box, lol.


Yesterday I also watched a movie Scarface. I realized that I liked the enthusiasm of the main character and the way he didn't have any fear when doing things and how he immediately put himself as an equal to whomever he faced. After the film I repeated his phrases lots of times and while I did it I felt an energy release, it was a feeling of like when something is funny and cool at the same time and it felt like a small ego boost. Then I started thinking about what would it be like if one would use that kind of "spirit"/enthusiasm/self-confidence/self-determination etc. and use it to motivate oneself to do what is best for all. I experience myself sometimes as not motivated to move myself and do what needs to be done which means I am still being moved by energy a lot. I also noticed that sometimes when I get some kind of energy I try to transform it into motivation to move myself and I can't say that it's particularly effective. Usually I get very motivated when I listen to an inspiring song or a movie that was designed for such purpose. But that's not real because it's energy based and it can't be maintained. It wears off in time. Being moved by energy al the time is not fun at all and not something I desire so I have to stop this shit and get myself here in the breath permanently where I can be stable no matter what. Now that's the ya-yo I want! Not the energy mind-fuck cock'a'roaches! lol