Sunday, September 5, 2010

2010 - Dealing with my sex system

I woke up aroused today so I wanted to take care of it and release the energy by being HERE with no thought or anything (I stopped all porn quite a while ago). I was just focusing on the feeling I had in my body and nothing else. It didn't really work and the arousal went aways fast so I stopped. Obviously all of my arousal and urge to release it came completely from my mind and was not real at all. Just systems.
And it got me thinking if I ever had sex without any thoughts and mind just being HERE. Obviously I didn't because every time I am presented with an opportunity to have sex I get aroused automatically and that's all mind systems controlling me. No more mind-picture-system arousal! Delete-erase-disengage. :)