2011 - No time? Make your time with breath!

Sometimes I find myself in a situation where there is so much to do that I don't even know where to start or what to do next. Then I think about it and worry how am I going to do it all and then I feel sorry for myself and do all sorts of unnecessary mind-thinking activities.

But the solution to this is simple. First, I realize that things that need to be done need to be done anyways, if I worry about them or not, so why worry at all? I stop all the thoughts, worries and I focus on the physical here-now moment and my breath. Breathing and being physically here in the moment, without thoughts, is all I need to do to get all the time in the world that I need. I realized that obviously I cannot do everything at once because I only exist one breath at a time, which means I can only do what I can in one breath. But that is enough. So if things seem complicated I just write all the tasks I need to do and I arrange them in order of importance. In that way I cannot forget about something so no worries needed. Then I just start doing the tasks one at the time, staying here in the breath in the physical, with no worries or future projections, fears etc. This way I'm as effective as I can be and I know that I'm doing all I can because I don't waste my time with thinking and worrying. So in any case, even if I don't finish all the tasks I wanted to, I don't worry about it at all! Because I know that I did all I physically, practically could, breath by breath. There are only so many breaths in a day so why worry about something that couldn't be done in one day (for example) anyways?

I realized that 'having no time' is no more than an illusion perceived through the mind when we try to do more than we can in one breath. Thus, if I always stay here, breathing, in the moment in the physical, I will never experience the 'lack of time' because time does not exist in the here-moment of breath. It is just me with all the time I could ever want.

2011 - Time: from too much to too litle

Since Barbi and I have decided to visit the Desteni Farm this July/August I found myself a temporary student job to earn the extra money needed. So before this decision I didn't work because I get a scholarship until I finish my diploma and that is my main system goal thing. So I had lots of time to do all kind of stuff whether it was Desteni related or otherwise. Now the situation changed quite a bit because I find it hard to do even the things that I have to. Also I'm quite tired when I get home from work because I work in a sawmill, which means I am moving heavy wood stuff around all the time. Because of that I also experienced an ego boost mindfuck in front of the mirror since I became more muscular lol. So during the week when I come home, shower and eat, I experience myself as drained and have much less motivation to do other stuff. So usually I just watch newly posted videos and look at what's new, maybe do something for my diploma and then it's Desteni chat time. Last time I almost fell asleep during it lol.
I realized how having a tough job with a low wage can be a perfect combination for creating apathetic people that like to just watch TV, drink beer and look for sex. I can't even imagine how hard it must be for most of the people that live like this most of their lives. I work at this place for only 3 weeks and already when I close my eyes all I see is wood, saw(dust) and the smell that goes with it.
I can see how an Equal Money System will  finally offer a break to such people that otherwise have no chance really to change jobs or stop working since they don't earn much anyway. The boss said to me once: "All we do in life is work, eat and have sex, isn't it?", well how retarded is that?! We have such a retarded system in place that most of the people never even realize that you can do lots of other things too... IF you have money of course. That's why Equal Money is needed. Also most of the hard work can be done mechanically (when money is not a problem) and will be done so in the Equal Money System and even if not, people will be able to work more slowly and thus more effectively and make super-quality products instead of just rushing it to get the job done in time, to get money. And also more people will be able to work at a job when needed, not like now, where it would be a lot easier to have another human or two helping with a task but that can't happen since it's cheaper to push one human to it's max until he just can't do it anymore and then get another one. Abuse of everything in the name of money. No fear, Equal Money is here!