Sunday, August 26, 2012

Day 31 - Laziness, too muchness, giving up

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the lazy character whenever I start doing my lesson and search for excuses why not to do it. When and as I see myself being in a lazy character - I stop and I breathe. I realize that I am giving into the pattern/emotion of laziness and all I have to do is to direct myself to do what needs to be done. I commit myself to stop the laziness character and direct myself and move myself to do what needs to be done.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself the backchat of 'I will do it later' as an excuse to not start working on my lesson and/or not finishing it. When and as I see myself making excuses for postponing - I stop and I breathe. I realize that with this I only perpetuate the pattern of postponing what I will have to do anyway. I commit myself to stop all excuses for postponement and direct myself here in the breath to do what needs to be done.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself the thought of 'it is too much work, too hard' to exist within and as me as an excuse why not to start working and/or finish my lesson. When and as I see myself existing within the thought of 'it is too much, too hard' I stop and I breathe. I realize that I am only postponing and building up a resistance towards something that I will have to do anyway. I commit myself to stop the thoughts of 'it is too much, too hard' and direct myself to do and finish what needs to be done breath by breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself the thought of ' I don't know how' to exist within an as me as an excuse why not to start working and/or finish my lesson. When and as I see myself existing withing the thought 'I don't know how - I stop and I breathe. I realize that this is only a created self-limitation with which I avoid expanding myself and taking self responsibility. I commit myself to stop the excuse of 'I don't know how' and direct myself to take self-responsibility for and learn/investigate the point and do/find a solution to what needs to be done.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into a give up and postponement character whenever I start working on a lesson and get resistance to do it. When and as I see myself getting into a resistance to do something - I stop and I breathe. I commit myself to stop the resistance through self-forgiveness, effective breathing and directing myself to do and finish what I am doing.

Monday, August 20, 2012

Day 30 - Want to be noticed & Fearing to speak



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for fulfillment of being noticed and cared for from another. I realize that I am doing this because I do not fulfill, notice and take care of myself. When and as I see myself looking for fulfillment, wanting to be noticed and cared for - I stop and I breathe. Instead I gift back myself to myself by noticing myself and taking care of myself and fulfilling myself with myself as who I am as Life here in every breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into sadness when I think/believe/perceive I am not noticed. I realize that I have separated myself from notice by wanting someone else to notice me. When and as I see myself going into sadness and wishing/wanting/desiring to be noticed by another - I stop and I breathe. I notice and give attention to myself and stand here in the breath in self-fulfillment as Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that I need someone to notice me. I realize that this is separation as I can give notice and attention back to myself and so stop the desire. When and as I see myself thinking/believing/perceiving that I need someone to notice me - I stop and I breathe. Instead I notice myself and give attention back to myself and take care of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to be noticed/accepted/loved/special within my relationships with others and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel insecure whenever I see/perceive no one notices me. When and as I see myself wishing/wanting/desiring to be noticed/accepted/loved/special - I stop and I breath. Instead I notice and give attention to myself and stand as an equal to others and all that is here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself and my thoughts before I speak to the point of giving into fear of speaking and not speaking at all. When and as I see myself judging myself and my thoughts before I speak - I stop and I breathe. Instead I share and express myself in the moment and expand myself through self-honesty and common sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the excuse of 'I don't know how' in order to no speak up and share/express what I wanted. When and as I see myself suppressing myself with the belief of 'I don't know how' to speak about something - I stop and I breathe. Instead I share and express myself and not go into self-judgment.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Day 29 - Avoiding Strangers Self-Commitment Statements


I commit myself to stop avoiding strangers and and unfamiliar people and direct myself here in the breath to stop all fears.

I commit myself to stop all judgment/comparison of myself and others when being around (unfamiliar) people and be here in the breath.

I commit myself to no longer search for acceptance from other people but to accept myself as an equal.

I commit myself to stop/remove all separation/reactions that come up within myself when being around (unfamiliar) people through self-forgiveness and self-correction until I am always equal here in the breath.

I commit myself to stop and remove the pattern of fear of stranger/unfamiliar people with self-forgiveness and self-correction until I am always here in the breath equal.

I commit myself to stop all reactions and judgments when I talk to (unfamiliar) people and to talk and express myself equally with others as do when with self.

I commit myself to stop all superiority/inferiority when being/speaking with (unfamiliar) people through self-forgiveness and self-correction until I am always equal here in the breath.

I commit myself to stop all judgments/reactions to what other people are saying with self-forgiveness and self-correction until I am always equal here in the breath and to direct the conversation through common sense and what is best for all and I commit myself to not avoid taking self-responsibility to speak and share myself and what I realized about self and common sense and what is best for all.

I commit myself to expand myself through meeting/talking to unfamiliar people and share myself and remove/stop all reactions/fears through self-forgiveness and self-corrective application.

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Day 28 - Avoiding Strangers

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid strangers and talking with unfamiliar people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear strangers and unfamiliar people and their judgements.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge and compare myself and others when I am around people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to constantly think about how could I fit in and be accepted by other people when being with them.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to accept myself when I am around people / strangers.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that strangers and unfamiliar people are no different than any other person I know and are actually the same as I am, with the same problems, thoughts, fears, etc.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel uncomfortable, uneasy, tense when around strangers and unfamiliar people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think / believe / perceive that I have to defend myself and be 'tough' around strangers and unfamiliar people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think / believe / perceive that I have to fight for my equal position with others when around strangers and unfamiliar people, instead of just accepting myself as an equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the pattern of going into fear and self-judgement when speaking with strangers and unfamiliar people, instead of breathing and being here in the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think / believe / perceive that there is nothing I can talk about with strangers and unfamiliar people and think / believe / perceive that this is normal and how it should be when I am with people.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I can be relaxed with all people no matter where I am.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to be relaxed when around people / strangers / unfamiliar people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think / believe / perceive that when I speak to someone I have to always show / teach something new and be in a teacher/giver character, instead of simply sharing myself here in the moment as an equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge people with specific beliefs / ways of living as completely brainwashed and closed for anything new and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think / believe / perceive that speaking with people with specific beliefs / ways of living is a waste of time, instead of realizing that by participating / interacting with all people equally I expand myself and get to know myself better and how the world works.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think / believe / perceive that I have to always stand as a perfect example of common sense and what is best for all when being around others and or talking with others / strangers and within this creating fear of not being like this, instead of realizing that I am walking my process and so being self-honest in the every here moment and sharing myself according to how I already understand myself and the world and the principles of common sense and what is best for all and not trying to present myself as something 'more than' as an idea of who I would like to be and within this sharing knowledge and information that I do not actually live or understand yet myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to immediately reject other people's ideas / beliefs instead of listening to them and reflecting myself within what they are saying and sharing myself as what I have realized as myself as an equal as another according to common sense and what is best for all within the points that are shared.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into superiority whenever I see / perceive someone talking / doing something that I already realized is a mind-fuck and don't do any more, instead of sharing myself and what I realized equally as another and stand as an example of change to others so that we may all realize ourselves faster according to common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into inferiority whenever I see / perceive someone is talking / doing something that I haven't realized yet or haven't made the self-correction yet, instead of taking the opportunity to reflect myself and see / realize where and how I am still not aligned with common sense and what is best for all and walking the self-forgiveness, self-correction and self-application.

Friday, August 10, 2012

Day 27 - I'm busy don't bother me character


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into fear of others and introvert myself whenever I come close to strangers and/or see/perceive that I could get into contact with them, instead of breathing and directing myself here in the moment.

I commit myself to not avoid (contact with) 'strangers' and to breathe and stop all self-judgments and backchat through self-forgiveness and self-correction to stand as an equal with others as with self.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear contact and avoid eye contact with people to avoid any conversation/interaction and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear what others will think about me/how they will judge me, instead of realizing that I have to stop my own self-judgment and be here in the breath.

I commit myself to stop all self-judgments and fears about interaction with other people through breathing, self-forgiveness and self-correction to stan clear here in the breath in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into 'I am busy don't bother me' character, where I pretend I am very focused on what I am doing and wouldn't like to be bothered, whenever I fear / don't want to get in contact with other people. When and as I see myself going into 'I am busy don't bother me' character - I stop and I breathe. I stay here in the breath and direct myself within practical common sense.

I commit myself to stop and remove and not use the 'I am busy don't bother me' character to avoid contact with other people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think about what other people might think about me when I am around them, instead of being here in the breath in the physical.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into backchat and think about other people when I see them, where I make judgments, comparisons, opinions, beliefs about them. I realize that within this I create my own fear of what others might think about me. When ad as I see myself going into backchat about other people - I stop and I breathe. Instead I remain here in the breath and focus on the physical.

I commit myself to stop all backchat, judgments, comparisons, opinions, beliefs about other people with effective breathing and self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become irritated / angry when I see / perceive that someone bothered/disturbed me. I realize that I create this situation myself where I think / believe / perceive that I shouldn't be disturbed / bothered because I fear that I will lose my direction / focus. When and as I see myself fearing of being bothered - I stop and I breathe. When and as I see myself thinking / believing that someone is bothering me and get irritated / angry - I stop and I breathe. Instead I remain here in the breath and direct the situation according to practical common sense.

I commit myself to not get irritated / angry when I am doing something / am focused on something and someone else wants my attention or interrupts me.

Friday, August 3, 2012

Day 26 - Relationship points



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be attached to my partner and give her a special place in my mind where I attach/connect with her all the good/positive memories that I experienced with her. I realize that this special memories are not real and were never mine as they can be lost and deleted at any time and so I fear losing what I never really had. When and as I see myself fearing to loose the special memories and definitions of my partner - I stop and I breathe. Instead I bring myself here in the breath and apply self-forgiveness and self-corrective application on whatever comes up that I am still hanging onto and fear losing.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear what will happen if I remove the special definitions of my partner and become self-directive and self-sufficient, instead of realizing that I actually fear being here with myself in self-direction and making myself self-sufficient and self-responsible. When and as I see myself fearing what will happen if I remove the special definitions of/attachments to my partner - I stop and I breathe. Instead I realize: I will become self-directive, self-sufficient, self-responsible and have self-trust to stand as one and equal and not fear losing anything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold on to the memories of me and my partner and define them as positive and special instead of being here in the breath and deleting all and any memories that come up in the mind. I realize that if I do not stop and delete this memories and my special attachments/definitions of them I will only get emotional and fear losing them or wish having them and fuck myself into eternity by cycling through them. When and as I see myself holding onto the memories of me and my partner - I stop and I breathe. Instead I apply self-forgiveness and self-correction and be here in the breath and don't compromise myself with them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold on to the wish/desire to be with my partner again and have a special relationship with her, instead of realizing that I am just fearing to delete and remove all my special attachments to her. When and as I see myself holding onto the wish/desire to be with my partner again and have a special relationship with her - I stop and I breathe. Instead I do the self-forgiveness statements and self correction to stop the desire/wish and be here in the breath as self-sufficient.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think/believe/perceive that my partner fulfills me. I realize that with this I allow myself to be flawed and dependent. When and as I see myself thinking/believing/perceiving that my partner fulfills me - I stop and I breathe. Instead I fulfill myself alone and stand as self-sufficient, self-fulfilling being and I commit myself to expand myself wherever I see I am still flawed and dependent on others to fulfill me.


Thursday, August 2, 2012

Day 25 - Scratching distractions

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distract myself when I write, read or do something on my computer and so through this postpone and be ineffective in what I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distract myself by scratching my head and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get annoyed by my dandruff and/or dry skin and stuff that gets behind my fingernails and so distract myself with scratching and cleaning my fingernails, instead of stopping the distractions/urge to scratch and being here in the breath and focusing on what I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distract myself with opening various unrelated pages while I read/write and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to follow the urge/desire for a short burst of an exciting feeling by looking at pages that I find exciting, instead of breathing and being here and focusing on what I am doing.

I commit myself to stop the distractions with breathing and directing myself here to continue what I am doing when and as I realize that I distract myself.