Day 162 - My Declaration of Principle: 9. Self Trust

The ninth principle I am committing myself to live by is the principle of self trust – as I commit myself to remain constant in my living of self honesty, self responsibility and self awareness, I stand as an unbending trust that I always in all ways know who I am no matter what I face and that in this I know, as proven in the constancy of my living that I will always honour and stand by what is best for all and so best for me.

This "knowing who I am" came to me as a self-honest realization and is basically an understanding/awareness that I am, as a Living being in this physical reality, equal to all other Life and so equally responsible to not allow any abuse of Life, because by doing so I actually abuse myself. This is an understanding that one does not invent, but becomes aware of through being self-honest with oneself and is thus a fundamental part of one's decision and commitment to live by the principle of "I will not treat others as I would not want to be treated in their place", because this is actually what is practically best for all Life and so best for myself as Life.

The Knowing is obviously not enough and so I am committing myself to constantly apply this realization in my practical Life, through changing who I am in relation to others as myself, because others are actually me from another perspective. In order to do so I must apply self-honesty in every breath to observe my patterns, my thoughts, emotions and feelings, so that I can align myself with what is best for all, through writing and applying self-forgiveness and practical self-corrective application and not stop at my perceived limitations or ideas of who I am or can be, but constantly lead myself to become my utmost potential as a living being and help create a world that is actually best for all. Firstly, through changing myself and being an example and secondly, by working with and supporting others, so that we can all give and gift to each other a life worth living.

How I practically change my life by living this principle is firstly seen in my blogs. I am participating in sharing my realizations and understanding of how we can all start changing ourselves and help create a world that is best for all through various channels on the internet and in my personal life, where I do not participate anymore in activities that are self-dishonest and harmful to myself and others, like abusing drugs such as alcohol, marijuana or others, by stopping to subdue myself to my own selfish emotional reactions and feelings and instead, rather live by the principle of common sense and what is best for all. By not accepting and allowing myself to be brainwashed through my own participation in ignorance, apathy, mindless entertainment and my own egoism. I rather learn to direct myself and participate in the Desteni group and others, where we help each other on various projects of exposing the abuse, not accepting it ourselves and showing and creating solutions that we can practically implement in order to improve the lives of all and ultimately create a life and a system on Earth where all Life will be equally considered and supported. Where everyone will have a dignified and fun life. I am exploring and investigating how the system works through politics, economics and psychology, in order to empower myself to see how the world really works and what needs to be done and how, so that we manifest a world that is actually, practically best for all. It is my personal process and purpose that I have gifted to myself in my life. And this process I also share and walk together with other Destonians, so that we can stand together effectively through the principle of 1 + 1 and create a world that is best for all as soon as possible. Because what is best for all is also best for myself.

Follow this link to see the full list of principles I am committing myself to live by.

2012 - Why was I able to hear the Desteni message

Before I heard about Desteni I was a doubtful person, I didn't just believe something because someone said so. I always tried to look at the bigger picture, to look behind the scene, trying to figure out what is really going on. I didn't like myself the way I was, I had no self-certainty and was afraid of lots of things, mostly people. I tried to look at myself to see who I really am, because I had no idea. I saw that I am afraid of things, that I don't understand myself and that somehow I can't control myself, my feelings, emotions, fears. This was really strange to me. I saw the ridiculousness of how people complicate each others lives and I was angry at myself because I didn't know what to do to make things better neither for myself or others. But I had a strong desire to do something, to find out once and for all what the fuck is wrong with us people, who is in control, why is everything so fucked up? Why can't we people just consider this reality and work together to live in harmony? Why does everyone seem just so goddamn corrupt and evil? How can people live and not openly ask these question? There has to be someone that sees what I see, that doesn't just accept this reality as something normal. Someone has to do something for fuck sake! Even if no one else wants to, I will do something. I don't know what exactly or how, but I have to do something. I will not just accept this world the way it is because it is just too fucking messed up!

Then I came across Desteni videos on YouTube and I started watching them, listening. I didn't care about the Portal or who it is that is talking. It was all just a bit weird at first and as I realized that there is no fucking way for me to know and be sure if someone is making a prank or not, I realized that all I can do is listen carefully to what is being said and see if it makes any sense. And the more I listened the more sense it made. There was a lot of things I already observed and realized about the world or in myself before. Other things that were new (like stopping the mind with self-aware breathing or self-forgiveness) I tried out and became aware of as it was pointed out to me in the videos and the Desteni message. I was amazed how insightful the information was and the pure size of it was unbelievable. I spent at least three months just watching, reading, listening and there was still more. I have never seen so much useful common sense in one place anywhere else, ever. And I was able to test it out for myself and prove it to myself. There were also a lot of shared stories that weren't really relevant at that time, but they helped me a lot as I wanted to understand the background of Desteni, how it all came together and how it all manifested into this one point, the Desteni group. There is no need whatsoever for one to believe that the stories about Desteni or the History of Mankind or History of the Universe are true, because none of them are really relevant. The relevant tools and principles are those that we can test ourselves and live ourselves right now in this moment. With the tools of self-honesty, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application we are able to manifest heaven on Earth for everyone Equally and this is truly amazing. Nonetheless, the stories assisted me a lot as I always wanted to understand why and how the hell does everything exist exactly the way it does. It is great to finally know. But does it matter? Not at all. Matter is the only thing that matters. And currently, it is still fucked up, just the way we made it. Now it is time to take self-responsibility and make this world the way that is Best for All.

Before all of this, my discovery and involvement in Desteni, I often had a feeling that something great and powerful will happen in my lifetime. Something that will change things dramatically. So, I was always open for new things, I was always looking for that special event that will make a great impact on what it means to be alive. The more I came to understand what Desteni is all about, the more sure I was that this is what I've been waiting for. It was all much more exciting and groundbreaking that I could ever imagine. And I explored lots of things: UFOs, conspiracies, ends of the world, revolutionary technologies, revelations... I was certain that something great will happen on one of these topics, but I was wrong. It happened all at once! Desteni for me at that time represented a great revelation: the end of deception, the end of bullshit and suffering, the end of corruption, the end of control and suppression, the end of hate. And now I am grateful to be able to participate in this birthing of Life from the physical for the first time in existence, to have a chance to learn, to change myself and to forgive myself for all that was, so that I can birth myself as Life and stand for Life with others that care, in oneness and equality. To do what is Best for All Life in practicality, to learn to direct myself and say out loud: I stand for a Dignified Life for All! This is who I am and this is who I want to be! Desteni helps me to be and make out of myself the best possible being I can be. There is absolutely no other thing or person in the whole world that would ever be able to help me as much as Desteni did by showing me how I can uplift myself (by myself!) as a living being into a self-honest, self-responsible and self-directive human being that cares for All Life Equally and truly does what is practically Best for All.

And Desteni is just a word. But what I have realized and learned and how I changed myself by participating in the group, this changed me forever and it truly made me a better human being and I am continuously improving myself to always stand for Life in Equality and do what is practically Best for All.

In the beginning I said that before I found Desteni I was a doubtful person. Maybe it would seem to someone that I am not anymore, but this would only show that one doesn't understand at all what I have learned as a Destonian. Through participating in Desteni I actually learned what it really means to questions and reconsider myself, my principles and the way we accept and allow this world to exist. And I am still learning what it means to be a responsible human being and how to actually always stand in self-honesty and do what is Best for All. This is a process that takes time and I am grateful that I can be a part of it.

Why was I able to hear the Desteni message? You still don't know what it is? It is simply to understand that we are all equally responsible for everything that exists here and thus we have to be self-honest and correct self through self-forgiveness and learn to work together as one to stop all the abuse of Life and create what is Best for All: Heaven on Earth for All Equally. We have all the practical tools needed to do so, we just have to start doing by having the right starting point: what is practically Best for All Life in Oneness and Equality. Why can I hear and understand this and so many others cannot or do not want to? Are you willing to change yourself into a self-honest, self-responsible living being that does what is Best for All and helps with what needs to be done to make heaven on Earth for everyone equally? If you are not, then look at yourself in self-honesty and understand what is the reason that prevents you from standing up for All Life Equally and change yourself accordingly. All the reasons you will find I have overcome, because I realized that egosim is just an illusion. I understand that what is Best for All is also best for myself and so, egoism can always be best just for one ego which then leads into the abuse of Life. I never wanted to accept any abuse of Life and never will. This is how I was able to hear the Desteni message.

2011 - Will the people vote for an equal money system?

First of all, when we look self-honestly at the consequences that are being produced through the current system of capitalism (abuse, famine, exploitation), we can clearly see that it is not working the way that is best for all. It only works for a small group of extremely rich people that build their wealth of the hard work of others. This fact is not hard to see and understand. The only people who really benefit from this system and are thus unlikely to be interested in changing it, are just a small percent of very rich people. And even they are able to realize that the current system is limiting them as well, because they are constantly dependent on exploiting others in order to maintain their luxury status through money. The point here is that everyone else, the big majority of the world population, are not satisfied with the capitalist system as it currently exists, as more and more people live on the edge of poverty every day and have to compete for pure survival. Thus the majority of people are very interested in finding and supporting better solutions that would allow them to enjoy a dignified life as well. But until now, there really wasn't any serious proposal or project presented to the people that would actually explore, develop and implement practical solutions that can be applied and followed by everyone of us in order to help with the implementation of the necessary changes that will guarantee everyone not only a dignified life, but a life that can today only be compared with a life of a millionaire. So, as people will get to understand more and more how an Equal Money System works and that it is actually designed in a way that is Best for All Life Equally, and as at the same time, we will be faced more and more with the abusive reality of the current capitalistic system, we will realize that something has to be changed and that the best way to change things is the way where everyone are considered equally. So, by the time we introduce the Equal Money System through a democratic, one man one vote option, people will have enough time to explore it, to understand its principles and to realize that it actually represents a solution that is Best for All. Thus people will vote for it as they will understand it and see for themselves how it will bring a Dignified Life for All.

So I look at it in self-honesty and ask myself, why would I vote for an Equal Money System? Do I really like more the current capitalistic system that perpetuates exploitation, greed, poverty, competition, scarcity, inequality and deception? Or do I like a system that ensures a Dignified Life for All by treating everyone equally, a system where I can choose to do what I like to do, a system where I don’t have to fight for pure survival all the time, a system that is actually based on the value of Life itself instead of profit? There is no doubt in me at all that I can help to establish such a system because I realized that every one of us is capable of being self-honest and doing what is best for all by standing as an example. Every one of us can realize self as equal to all life and stand as an example of how to practically achieve necessary changes, because I have been doing it and will be doing it as long as I have to, to show to myself and others that we make our own destiny and that we have to and are able to accept nothing less but what is Best for All Life.

Why would I want to live in a world where I have to exploit other beings in order to get enough money to secure the safety of my own life? Why would I blind myself from all the abuse that is generated through capitalism if there is a better solution at hand? Why would I care only for myself and my own wealth if I can see that even if I get rich, I will have to live in fear of losing what I have? Even today’s millionaires can't escape the fact that Earth is getting more and more polluted, that the majority of countries are poor and so dangerous to visit. Would I really be happy if I got rich, hiding in my mansion somewhere, while others live in misery? We can build a world that is better than that! I want to see all people happy and taken care of, I want to be able not to worry about money and survival, I want to be able to do what I like to do, no matter where I go. I want to be able to visit all the places on Earth and know that I will be taken care of equally as everyone else. I want a system that will honor all life equally on all levels and support all life equally no matter what. Being self-honest, this is what we all want because what is best for all is best for ourselves. And this is exactly what we will start establishing with an Equal Money System. Those that are not willing to support equality of Life are only able to do so because they currently possess a lot of money by exploiting others and they are just a few and can never be more than just a few because the capitalism doesn’t allow anything else. So, what do you think people will vote for when they will be offered a chance to live equally to those that are now millionaires? Will they vote for an Equal Money System or will they prefer Capitalism?

2011 - Answering Susanne Hahn

I have received the following private message on FaceBook from Susanne:

"Dear Blaz
Sorry, but I do not feel really attracted to this connection. What I feel and see about Destini and the followers, I like the goal but not the way – I don’t feel attracted to this path, for me too much equality and too much uniform symbolism, too much to read and I don’t like programs at all. Sorry but I follow only my inner smile and feel too free at this point of time for this. That does not mean, that your way is wrong, it is just not mine.

Wish you all the best, love, joy and peace.
May there be peace among all, Om Shanti - shanti, shanti

With devine love
Susanne"

Hi Susanne,

I am not sure why you decided to write me this private message but if you are looking for a confirmation of your attempt of taking a self-righteous position, I am not going to give you one because that is your ego trying to justify itself which is self-deception. Don't react to what I'm saying, just be self-honest about self. The only reason why you can say "Your goal is OK but I don't like the way because I don't feel attracted so I'm not willing to join" is because you have enough money to live as you wish and so just don't care about those that don't. If you would actually understand what we are doing you would see that the only way to change the system and the world as we have accepted and allowed it to exist is to do what we are doing = sorting out self with the tools provided and then standing together as a group which mean acting as one as equals to bring about what is practically Best for All. Look again in self-honesty what is your starting point, what are you protecting by not joining? What are you afraid off? If you wish someone all the best, love, joy and Om Shanti (whatever that means...), that doesn't make you a 'good' or 'better' person. The reality is that you are not willing to do anything practically that needs to be done to bring about a dignified life to all. All you do is deceive people with your 'divine love' sharing which you use to make yourself feel as a 'good person' and to support your ego, your self-righteousness.

So Susanne, are you willing to face your-self and do what needs to be done practically to actually stand for All Life and bring about the needed change so that we can all have a dignified life? Or are you going to protect your ego through self-righteousness and hide behind nice words and only do what you feel attracted to and turn a blind eye to everything else just because you have enough money to continue with your self-deception?

2011 - Zeitgeist: Moving Forward

I have watched the Zeitgeist: Moving Forward film and I have to say that it is one of the best documentary films I have ever watched because it dares to directly question and expose our current system of abuse that we accept and allow every day, but this is the point where 'one of the best' ends. Consider this:

Although there is an ideal solution proposed in a form of how things should be done (from a scientific point of view) in a way that is best for all, so that all would live a dignified life, there are no clear and directive steps being realized and worked on to actually create the change that is required to bring about the goal.

We are living here in physical reality where we have to invent and create practical solutions and consider our current situation to bring about what is best for all. That is only possible if we work together, as one, as equals. It is obvious in the end of the film that the authors have no actual understanding in terms of what is practically required from each individual to bring about what is best for all because of the following: The film ends showing how global protests are taking place where people take all of their physical money and literally throw it at the bank. And that's it. From there the viewer can only imagine how the society will somehow magically be transformed into a Venus Project kind of city urban environments. That is obviously not the solution. It is just a goal, presented with no understanding of how to make it real.

It is very simple. We have to work with the system, as the system in order to transform it as soon as possible because otherwise we will just be eliminated and seen as a threat. Waiting for enough people to realize that we are eradicating ourselves is not acceptable because in doing this we are actually waiting for ourselves, not taking our self responsibility (not being response-able) and blaming others for not changing and doing what needs to be done to bring about what is best for all. This will only be possible if each one of us self honestly redesigns self to always live by the principle of what is best for all. If that is not done, we will not be able to work and live together, as one, as equals and therefore, no solution for a better life will be possible. One can only do this when one is completely honest about self at all times because only then can one forgive self for what one accepted and allowed and let it go thus giving self the opportunity to redesign self and realign self to live by the principle of what is best for all. When one is not self honest, one accepts and allows thoughts and emotions to possess self which are always self-centered and thus allow and create separation between self and everything else which means that abuse will happen in one form or another.

People gathered together as a Desteni group realize and understand this and thus practically learn how to live in self honesty and in this transform self to always live by the principle of what is best for all. We learn how to always be self-directive, meaning, to never allow self to be influenced by thoughts, feelings and emotions that originate from separation as ego because the consequence of accepting and allowing this in one self will always accumulate into acts that are self-centered and not best for all. For this purpose a life coaching program called Desteni'I'Process has been designed in a form of on-line course in order to effectively support every individual that is serious about self from the point of realizing what needs to be done practically to bring about what is best for all in all ways and take self responsibility to be and live the solution as one and equal withing the group, thus manifesting a system that supports all as one as equal, where all have a dignified life and each one can reach ones highest potential. Realize that this can only be done when all participate equally as one, accumulating what is best for all 1+1+1+1...

Also, while the Zeitgeist people in general realized that there is a big problem in the way money is being used today, they failed at remaining objective in working out a solution because they blamed the money to be bad and so creating a polarity of 'no money = good' which is obviously a delusion. Consider this:

Money is a tool that is very effective in dealing with goods and if it is used in the context of a system that is designed from the principle of what is best for all (= Equal Money System) then it is a part of the solution. Realize also that money in itself was never the problem, people are. So it is a mind-fuck if one would want to to eradicate money just because one never considered that it can in fact be used as a solution to the problem we face. That would be an act of complete ignorance. And it is contradictory for a Zeitgeister to make decisions out of a belief while in the same time supporting the scientific method and objectivity. This would be a complete self dishonest act.

And as I realized as one of the founding members of Zeitgeist Slovenija, this is the major problem of Zeitgeisters (like all other people), not wanting to face self and the world in complete self-honesty. Therefore as long as the Zeitgeisters will not realize and do this, they will not be able to contribute to the practical solution that needs to be lived by every individual as self to bring about what is best for all in all ways.

2010 - Dissolving relationship mindfucks

It is interesting how I allowed myself to be influenced through feelings and emotions by my partner. When I see that she is not feeling ok or that she has a mindfuck, it's like I get it too. Like yesterday we were talking on the phone and I noticed that she's got this voice tonality that she usually has when she's not ok with something. I asked her why and whats wrong and she said nothing and then that she just doesn't know why I'm calling her because we can talk on the internet and that we don't have anything specific to talk about anyway. So that was probably the cause but anyway, I still allowed myself to go into this emotion of "something is wrong", I need to find out and help her correct the problem. I see now that I still see her differently in a way because I care more how she is and also how she sees me. So basically I would like her not to think bad about me and that's relationship mindfuck mind control. Usually what I would do in that situation is that I would start thinking about what is wrong and firstly if I am the reason for it and then I would try to make things 'right'. But yesterday I didn't, now I stop myself and breathe through it and just work with what is here in common sense. I ask and if there is a problem I try to assist in common sense, otherwise I stop to bother and don't think about it at all. I'd say we mostly fuck up things the moment we start to think about them. It's all ego mindfucks. I stop, I breathe and I do not accept and allow myself to go into my mind and thinking, instead I stay here in the breathe and deal only with what is here, common sense is all I need.

Writing this I felt a slight and short pain on the left middle side of my neck. Something defused? I know in general that pain appears when we write and do self-forgiveness which is indicating that we are in away effective with the process but I usually don't use it to assist myself with it specifically. I am going to be more aware of it and use it to assist myself from now on.

When I wrote the title for this post with the words "dissolving relationship" an emotion of fear/resistance/sadness came up. It was like "oh no I am loosing my relationship and I don't want that" kind of feeling when in fact I am just dissolving and deleting my imaginary mind constructs that are not real to begin with. It was hard for me in the beginning to deal with it but now I see that I am not loosing anything in fact, I am just removing the restrictions/ideas/mindfucks/illusions that fuck me up as my mind. And that is not loosing, that is allowing me as life back to me to be fully here, responsible and participating as equal as one, getting rid of limitation with which I imprisoned myself through my own mind.