Day 7 - Stopping the relationship energy addictions

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into and exist within and as the feeling of excitement/happiness whenever X invites me somewhere or wants to hang out with me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into anticipation/desire/wish/want of having a good/fun time whenever X invites me somewhere or wants to hang out with me, where I go into memories of how good I felt when we were together in the past, instead of staying here in the breath and stopping the back chat.

I realize that these are the energetic patterns with which I limit myself to not look at things within common sense and what is best for all. When and as I see myself going into the feeling of excitement/happiness and memories when X invites me somewhere or wants to hang out with me - I stop and I breathe. Instead I remain here in the breath and I establish self-direction within common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate myself by going into sadness/anxiety/depression when I stop myself from wishing/wanting/desiring to follow the energetic pattern of good feelings. I realize that by doing this I am standing up for myself as Life to not be subdued to energetic desires and dependent/enslaved to them. When and as I see myself going/manipulating myself by going into sadness/anxiety/depression when I stop myself from wishing/wanting/desiring to follow the energetic pattern of good feelings - I stop and I breathe. Instead I remain here in the breath and I stop all the backchat and I stand within self-responsibility and self-sufficiency.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into anxiety/fear of loosing my 'good energies' and energetic relationship with X whenever I see/perceive that I could be with her but decide not to when it is not common sense because I would only support my addiction to good feelings. I realize that I am experiencing the addiction I have created within my energetic relationship with X that I am now stopping and not accepting and allowing to direct me and possess me. When and as I see myself going into anxiety/fear of loosing my 'good energies' and energetic relationship with X whenever I see/perceive that I could be with her but decide not to as it is not common sense - I stop and I breathe. Instead I focus on my breath here and direct myself within common sense and what is best for all and stop all backchat.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into self-pity/sadness and create the feeling/perception of loneliness when I am not with X and when I stop and do not participate in the wishes/wants/desires to get the 'good feelings' that I remember experiencing when being in an energetic relationship with X. I realize that I am creating these emotions/feelings myself and that I have to stop the polarity game and stop feeling sorry for myself and stand up for myself and all Life equally and be here in the breath in self-sufficiency and direct myself in common sense and what is best for all to free myself from energetic enslavement with which I compromise and limit myself. When and as I see myself going into self-pity/sadness and creating the feeling/perception of loneliness and feeling sorry for myself when I am not with X and when I stop and do not participate in the wishes/wants/desires to get the 'good feelings' that I remember experiencing when being in an energetic relationship with X - I stop and I breathe. Instead I give it all back to myself until I am whole and self-sufficient and I direct myself here in common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise myself by going into memories of my relationship with X and believing that this is who I am and replaying them again and again in my mind and feel sad and sorry for myself, believing that by removing/deleting these definitions/energy addictions I will delete and remove myself and be in great pain/sorrow, instead of realizing that I am freeing myself from the energetic addictions and mind limitations I have created for myself and that this is really insignificant in comparison to all the pain others have to go through that don't even have a chance to make a difference in this world because the have no food/shelter/water and basic needs. When and as I see myself compromising myself by going into memories of my relationship with X and believing that this is who I am and replaying them again and again in my mind and feeling sad and sorry for myself - I stop and I breathe. Instead I realize and understand that this is insignificant in comparison to all the pain others have to go through that have no basic needs and dignity and I stop emotions/feelings and I stop feeling sorry for myself and write and apply myself in common sense and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to still want to hang on to the desires and hope of having an energetic relationship with X. I realize that with this I am compromising myself and her by still not wanting to stop and remove the energetic addiction and self-limitation and so making my/our suffering longer, instead of simply actually applying self-forgiveness and self-application and freeing myself from this self-abuse through emotions/feelings and doing what is best for all life.

2011 - Consumerism is a mental disease and we all have it

When we observe ourselves self-honestly we can see that we are addicted to consumerism. Every now and then (which is usually very often) we get the urge to buy ourselves something new, just to feel good. It starts with thinking about what we like and would like to have and then we build the excitement through our thoughts about a product. In the end we allow ourselves to get consumed by this energy mind possession until we just go and buy it because then we feel good and it's exciting to use the new product, for a while. Then we start at the beginning. We allow ourselves to get brainwashed with our own desires and wants that are actually not real because we make them up in our head as we separate ourselves from the point that we want to get when we buy a product. For example when we want to buy a new piece of cloths because we think we'll look good in it - we just separated ourselves from 'beauty' because we define ourselves as not good enough and ugly and we put the value and definition of beauty into a piece of clothes. We then mind-fuck ourselves into thinking that we will only achieve beauty - that is not real, just a definition in our head that we made up ourselves - if we buy and wear the piece of clothes that apparently makes us beautiful or sexy or what ever. And we become a complete system robot! We do this all the time with everything. And in this we don't consider anything else but our ego personality, our desires and wants and we do all kinds of nasty things, just to get what we want, which is basically money. It's time to stop because otherwise our ego will make us all suffer really bad until we realize there's just no other way but to stop with all the abuse of ourselves and each other. I am not going to wait to be stopped by reality. I know how to stop myself and you can too if you dare to be self-honest. Join the Desteni'I'Process, lets change ourselves and stand together by supporting each other in stopping all the abuse of Life. Lets start doing what is Best for All Life so that All can Live in Dignity. We as Destonians will not stop until this is done, until we all live as One as Equals. And don't fool yourself with the idea that we need all human beings to agree with this because we as human beings are such a small part of existence that we can actually be very happy and grateful to even still be here, taking into consideration how we still continue to abuse all and everything and each other just because of our huge egos, self accepted and allowed mind delusions, that we are apparently almighty and can so ignore everything we don't care about or just too sinful to correct ourselves into beings that always do what is Best for All. We have a lot to learn to correct all the bullshit we have accepted and allowed on this World throughout our existence. Better start learning and correcting ourselves now because there is no escape from it, not even death. Obviously the question at hand is always this: who does really care? Do human beings care about Life? Or do we only care about our ego mind-fucks, thinking only about what will we buy next time in order to get an energy boost of delusional happiness or sex or what ever thing that we are addicted to, but don't want to face and be self honest about. Do you really care about Life? Or are you a complete system robot, that just executes the self accepted and allowed mind programs every day until you will die and rot away forever?

 

Through the DIP one will learn how to remove one's accepted and allowed mind programming = ego. Only when this is done, one will be able to actually start living as One as Equal in a way that is Best for All, meaning not harming or abusing Life. But how can one explain this to a system robot? Some human beings have a really hard time realizing this, let alone doing something about it.

I chose self-honesty, I chose Life and what is Best for All. And I can stand by my principle always. This is the difference between Life and a self-destructive, ego-driven, life-abusing system robot.

I am one vote for an Equal Money System!

2010 - Stopping Addictions (sweets) Conclusion

While I wasn't eating any sugar nothing changed significantly so I figured that only when I start eating sweets I get the temporary addiction of wanting more until I feel sick, lol. So now I am aware of when and how much food I ate and I stop when my body says it's enough.

In regards to other addictions I don't think I have any. Like with sugar, sometimes I get temporarily addicted to something because I don't have anything else (fun) to do. Like right now I play Wii a lot. Like few hours a day. But I'm still not addicted particularly to Wii, I am addicted to the idea that I have to do something I defined as fun to have fun. Yeah that's my problem. I define things as fun and not fun and then I try to do only fun things as much as I can.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define things as fun/not fun.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have a desire of doing fun things only because I defined them as fun.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to think that I need to do things I defined as fun in order to have fun.

I don't need anything or anyone in order to have fun because I am fun and everything here can be fun if I want to.

2010 - Stopping addictions

I don't smoke, I already stopped drinking alcohol and now I've decided to also stop the addiction to sugar and sweets. I noticed that often I eat chocolate or similar although I'm not hungry. Sometimes I feel that I already ate too much sugar but I still eat it automatically not realizing it like a true robot, lol. I obviously programmed it as a habit into my mind and it's not supportive at all. So I'll stop eating sugar for 21 days (it seams to be the universal number for breaking a habit and becoming aware of self :) to stop the habit and to start being aware of what I eat and why.