We all have ideas about sex, like how should it be/look like and who to have it with etc. with which we limit ourselves through feelings/emotions and self-judgments. We define ourselves through it and place special value to it as if it is something supernatural and mystical while in fact it is just another way to express self in the physical, like playing a sport or massaging someone etc., the only big problem is that we allow ourselves to become completely possessed by sexual energies and desires where we become complete robots trying to get the energetic release instead of simply being here without all the self-created energies and expressing self in self-direction with another. If we express ourselves within sex without any judgments, anticipations, desires etc., we simply enjoy ourselves in the physical with another and that's all there is to it. Because self-honestly, seeing sex only as putting ones dick into someones vagina and getting an orgasm is self-abuse and self-limitation through ones own created desires/addictions to sexual energies. Sex in self-expression can be so much more, a real expression of self as life here, with no judgments/desires/anticipations. I've started to remove the layers of my preprogrammed mind patterns through which I limited myself within sex and sexual expression.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want/need/desire to associate/define/value myself with/through my partner/the person I had sex with, instead of realizing that having sex does not define me as who I am as life here in oneness and equality.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as 'easy'/'less than' for having sex with someone I don't have special feelings/attraction towards.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that having sex with someone I don't have special feelings/attraction towards is wrong/inappropriate/shameful/stupid and to judge myself for it, instead of realizing that I am establishing a point of self direction where I do not accept and allow myself to be controlled by my energetic desires and beliefs of love/attraction.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of other people judging me/rejecting me because I had sex with someone I have no attraction/special feelings towards, instead of realizing that other people's reactions do not define me because they just represent their reactions which they haven't dealt with yet.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that a person who I have/had sex with is/should be special and 'more than' others'.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be ashamed to tell other people who I have/had sex with and to fear that others will reject me because of their judgment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of premature ejaculation.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself to others and blame myself as 'less than' if I don't last as long as someone else would.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive that women wish for sex to last long.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define/perceive slow penetration as better/more passionate than fast penetration.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define/perceive sex as a passionate act, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach a definition of passion onto physical touching another human being/male and within that make it more than other physical acts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of creating mindfucks and confusion within other people, if I dare to be honest with them.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of my parents judgments and disapproval of the people that I have sex with.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel the need to present a presentable female to my parents and get their approval..
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about what other people think about me. Whenever I see myself worrying about how other people perceive/see me, I stop, I breathe, I do not allow myself to influence myself through the eyes of others
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
2012 - War = crime against Life
Any and all wars are unacceptable and anyone who promotes it should be immediately assisted to realize this and stop the ego-centric self-deception and abuse. Anyone that promotes, justifies and supports war and abuse must be removed from all and any kind of position of power as he/she is incapable of common sense and doing what is Best for All Life.
(Click on any link in the text to get more perspectives.)
Any kind of war represents a complete fail of all human beings to recognize all Life as Self in Oneness and Equality. When there is a war, who benefits? Who makes more money, who gets more control? Those who kill each other or those who want others to kill each other? People allow themselves to be deceived into believing that they are fighting for a 'good cause', for 'freedom', for a better future, for what is best for them and their country... This is always a complete, utter self-deceptive bullshit. No war/violence/killing can ever be best for all because it is always based on separation and self-deception.
All we hear lately is the 'CONflict' between Iran and USA/NATO and how it all looks like there is going to be another war, possibly world war 3. The brainwash apparatus (media), controlled by those with basically unlimited money supply, generated and handed over to them through the exploitation of the economic slaves of capitalism, feeds us - the undereducated/dumbed down people - with fears and tons of justifications for war and why war is supposedly OK and even necessary as if there is apparently no other way. They portray the 'bad guys' as selfish and unwilling to participate instead of looking into the mirror. Through our brainwash media we lie directly and continuously right into our faces about the situation of Iran for example, or anything else for that matter. We simply accept and allow ourselves to be deceived and manipulated towards self-destruction because obviously, most of the people still do not realize and do not want to face the fact that we are all self-responsible for what we have accepted and allowed to exist within ourselves and this world, because whatever we see in the world is just an outflow of what we accept and allow withing ourselves.
If we don't want to suffer the consequences of self-created hell, then we have to always live according to what is Best for All. And if we want to stop all wars, we have to stop the war within ourselves first. We have to stop all the self-accepted and allowed judgments, fears, reactions, anger ... which we all create in separation with/among ourselves and what is here, through the illusions of our minds.
Thus we are self-responsible to not accept and allow any separation to exist within/between ourselves.We have to realize that we are all one and equal and this can only be done by physically/practically walking the principle of what is Best for All. To make it clearer, in the example of war/violence/killing I will always direct myself in the way that will stop it and I will never accept and allow anything that promotes it. I will speak out and expose the self-deception and abuse of Life that exists within war/violence/killing. I will put myself in the shoes of others and I will care for All Life Equally because we are all One.
We tend to look away when we see abuse and suffering just because it is not happening to us and this shows how completely separated we are from self = from what is here. All that exists here, even if it is on the other side of the world, is here because every one of us accepts and allows it to exist within ourselves. As long as there is war, violence, killing or any other abuse of Life then we know that it is here because we all accept and allow it. Especially when we don't (want to) care/notice.
Every one of us must stop. Stop everything that we have accepted and allowed as ourselves because all is self-deception and self-abuse. And as we stop in self-honesty and self-forgiveness, we have to correct ourselves and learn to always direct ourselves by the principle of what is Best for All Life in Oneness and Equality. Then we can live in piece and dignity within/among ourselves and all that is here. Doing anything else will always result in the consequence of suffering and self-abuse. Doing anything else can only create pain and eternal, self-created damnation. No one will save us, no one will save you. We all have to do it ourselves for self and for all that is here in oneness and equality or we shall be damned for eternity because even death won't end the suffering. No one can run away and hide, we all have to face what we have accepted and allowed within ourselves. The longer we postpone, the longer and stronger will be the suffering. Until we start doing what is Best for All in Oneness and Equality.
It is the self-responsibility of every one of us to speak out and not accept and allow any kind of war or any other abuse of Life in any way. We have to stand as practical examples of how to always live in a way that is Best for All and work together to bring about such practical solutions (like an Equal Money System).
(Click on any link in the text to get more perspectives.)
Any kind of war represents a complete fail of all human beings to recognize all Life as Self in Oneness and Equality. When there is a war, who benefits? Who makes more money, who gets more control? Those who kill each other or those who want others to kill each other? People allow themselves to be deceived into believing that they are fighting for a 'good cause', for 'freedom', for a better future, for what is best for them and their country... This is always a complete, utter self-deceptive bullshit. No war/violence/killing can ever be best for all because it is always based on separation and self-deception.
All we hear lately is the 'CONflict' between Iran and USA/NATO and how it all looks like there is going to be another war, possibly world war 3. The brainwash apparatus (media), controlled by those with basically unlimited money supply, generated and handed over to them through the exploitation of the economic slaves of capitalism, feeds us - the undereducated/dumbed down people - with fears and tons of justifications for war and why war is supposedly OK and even necessary as if there is apparently no other way. They portray the 'bad guys' as selfish and unwilling to participate instead of looking into the mirror. Through our brainwash media we lie directly and continuously right into our faces about the situation of Iran for example, or anything else for that matter. We simply accept and allow ourselves to be deceived and manipulated towards self-destruction because obviously, most of the people still do not realize and do not want to face the fact that we are all self-responsible for what we have accepted and allowed to exist within ourselves and this world, because whatever we see in the world is just an outflow of what we accept and allow withing ourselves.
If we don't want to suffer the consequences of self-created hell, then we have to always live according to what is Best for All. And if we want to stop all wars, we have to stop the war within ourselves first. We have to stop all the self-accepted and allowed judgments, fears, reactions, anger ... which we all create in separation with/among ourselves and what is here, through the illusions of our minds.
Thus we are self-responsible to not accept and allow any separation to exist within/between ourselves.We have to realize that we are all one and equal and this can only be done by physically/practically walking the principle of what is Best for All. To make it clearer, in the example of war/violence/killing I will always direct myself in the way that will stop it and I will never accept and allow anything that promotes it. I will speak out and expose the self-deception and abuse of Life that exists within war/violence/killing. I will put myself in the shoes of others and I will care for All Life Equally because we are all One.
We tend to look away when we see abuse and suffering just because it is not happening to us and this shows how completely separated we are from self = from what is here. All that exists here, even if it is on the other side of the world, is here because every one of us accepts and allows it to exist within ourselves. As long as there is war, violence, killing or any other abuse of Life then we know that it is here because we all accept and allow it. Especially when we don't (want to) care/notice.
Every one of us must stop. Stop everything that we have accepted and allowed as ourselves because all is self-deception and self-abuse. And as we stop in self-honesty and self-forgiveness, we have to correct ourselves and learn to always direct ourselves by the principle of what is Best for All Life in Oneness and Equality. Then we can live in piece and dignity within/among ourselves and all that is here. Doing anything else will always result in the consequence of suffering and self-abuse. Doing anything else can only create pain and eternal, self-created damnation. No one will save us, no one will save you. We all have to do it ourselves for self and for all that is here in oneness and equality or we shall be damned for eternity because even death won't end the suffering. No one can run away and hide, we all have to face what we have accepted and allowed within ourselves. The longer we postpone, the longer and stronger will be the suffering. Until we start doing what is Best for All in Oneness and Equality.
It is the self-responsibility of every one of us to speak out and not accept and allow any kind of war or any other abuse of Life in any way. We have to stand as practical examples of how to always live in a way that is Best for All and work together to bring about such practical solutions (like an Equal Money System).
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
2012 - Self-Forgiveness on defining self through others
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself through others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to belief that I need others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I alone am incomplete.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise and sabotage myself with the idea of loneliness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as anything other than Life here in oneness and equality.
I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to see and realize the deception of my own and other people's special relationships.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire/want to be a special winner with special attention.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I need any kind of attention.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be at-tension, instead of attending myself and all that is here equally.
I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to be all-one.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear to be all-one.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise and sabotage myself with the fear/feelings/emotions of 'aloneness'.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to belief that I need others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I alone am incomplete.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise and sabotage myself with the idea of loneliness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as anything other than Life here in oneness and equality.
I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to see and realize the deception of my own and other people's special relationships.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire/want to be a special winner with special attention.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I need any kind of attention.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be at-tension, instead of attending myself and all that is here equally.
I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to be all-one.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear to be all-one.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise and sabotage myself with the fear/feelings/emotions of 'aloneness'.
Monday, March 12, 2012
2012 - Song lyrics
When I hear a song that talks about relationship/love/feelings/emotions I start to listen to the lyrics and allow myself to imagine the relationship/emotional situations when then I go into desire of such relationships/emotions of love etc.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to focus on the lyrics of emotional/relationship/love songs and to start to imagine myself in such situations and to desire them and believe that I need them in order to be happy. When and as I see myself focusing my attention on such lyrics - I stop, I breathe. I realize that by this I am allowing myself to use such lyrics to become emotional and to desire situations that exist only in my mind and so I get depressed and sad through believing that this is what I need to be happy, instead of realizing that such emotions/happiness is all the illusion of the mind and is never real and always works in polarities where if I am happy in one moment I will have to be sad and depressed in another. This stops here. I do not accept and allow myself to focus on the lyrics and to use them to generate ideas/desires and emotions/feelings, instead I stay here in the breath.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to focus on the lyrics of emotional/relationship/love songs and to start to imagine myself in such situations and to desire them and believe that I need them in order to be happy. When and as I see myself focusing my attention on such lyrics - I stop, I breathe. I realize that by this I am allowing myself to use such lyrics to become emotional and to desire situations that exist only in my mind and so I get depressed and sad through believing that this is what I need to be happy, instead of realizing that such emotions/happiness is all the illusion of the mind and is never real and always works in polarities where if I am happy in one moment I will have to be sad and depressed in another. This stops here. I do not accept and allow myself to focus on the lyrics and to use them to generate ideas/desires and emotions/feelings, instead I stay here in the breath.
Friday, March 9, 2012
2012 - Walking with
Since I am living with my new roommate I find my process of removing my mind-fucks and emotional/energy patterns much more intense/obvious which is cool, as I am able to see them more clearly and what is most important, take self-responsibility for them to remove them and so learn to direct myself in common sense.
One of the points I assist myself with is the fact that my roommates expression in a way resembles the expression of my father who I feared a lot and couldn't really communicate with him effectively. Thus I have the same patterns coming up when I talk to my roommate as I have when talking to my father. Basically I get the feeling of being attacked, threatened or somehow regarded as 'less than'. From this idea I would then usually respond through my ego from the starting point of defending myself and trying to re-establish myself as an equal in the mind of the other person, which is of course impossible. I can only be equal with myself and so to everyone/all here. I have realized that I would only respond like that when I take it personally, meaning that I haven't yet take the self-responsibility for these points through which I create my reaction. After I do that I simply don't react anymore to other's words, I just see/hear the words spoken and I reflect myself within them to see if they make any sense to me and if I can find any support within them.
Within this starting point a realized that I can recognize the moodiness/manipulation attempts from others much more effectively and so I don't accept and allow myself to be effected by them. Also as I am not reacting and also not having a specific desire for a specific effect when I speak to someone, I realize that I can so focus more on understanding the person I talk to and aligning myself to their understanding of self and so expressing myself in a way that is not 'aggressive' towards another because this only creates conflict and competition. Of course the person who feels this way is self-responsible for it because she/he caused this feelings him/her-self, but usually and especially when talking to someone who is not yet walking the Desteni'I'Process, having such an aggressive approach is not alway the best way as it distracts and takes focus away from the actual point one is trying to share with another to the point where the other person feels threatened, 'less than' and then tries to defend oneself through her/his ego as this is how ego works in trying to survive and remain the same as a self-righteous system of self-limitation.
One of the points I assist myself with is the fact that my roommates expression in a way resembles the expression of my father who I feared a lot and couldn't really communicate with him effectively. Thus I have the same patterns coming up when I talk to my roommate as I have when talking to my father. Basically I get the feeling of being attacked, threatened or somehow regarded as 'less than'. From this idea I would then usually respond through my ego from the starting point of defending myself and trying to re-establish myself as an equal in the mind of the other person, which is of course impossible. I can only be equal with myself and so to everyone/all here. I have realized that I would only respond like that when I take it personally, meaning that I haven't yet take the self-responsibility for these points through which I create my reaction. After I do that I simply don't react anymore to other's words, I just see/hear the words spoken and I reflect myself within them to see if they make any sense to me and if I can find any support within them.
Within this starting point a realized that I can recognize the moodiness/manipulation attempts from others much more effectively and so I don't accept and allow myself to be effected by them. Also as I am not reacting and also not having a specific desire for a specific effect when I speak to someone, I realize that I can so focus more on understanding the person I talk to and aligning myself to their understanding of self and so expressing myself in a way that is not 'aggressive' towards another because this only creates conflict and competition. Of course the person who feels this way is self-responsible for it because she/he caused this feelings him/her-self, but usually and especially when talking to someone who is not yet walking the Desteni'I'Process, having such an aggressive approach is not alway the best way as it distracts and takes focus away from the actual point one is trying to share with another to the point where the other person feels threatened, 'less than' and then tries to defend oneself through her/his ego as this is how ego works in trying to survive and remain the same as a self-righteous system of self-limitation.
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