Day 1 - Clearing/re-evaluating my agreements

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel angry/sad whenever I perceive/see someone trying to discredit me and manipulate others into thinking bad about me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel like I have to defend myself whenever I see/perceive that other people gossip about me, instead of realizing that it is their responsibility to not deliberately discredit others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get angry/annoyed when one wants to manipulate me by judging me/blaming me/blackmailing me when I don't want to participate in the blaming game or do what another demands I should.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish/want/desire to explain to others 'my side of the story' because I fear that they will judge me based on the other people's judgments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel guilty when one wants to have sex with me and I decline even if I know that this is only based on desire/manipulation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that others will gossip about me and try to discredit me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fall for the manipulation point of guilt when one wants to manipulate me into making a decision according to their wishes/wants/desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel guilty when one says that I am not supporting equality just because I decline to live/have an agreement/have sex with someone.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel guilty and to blame myself for not making an agreement with X and not deciding to live with X, instead of realizing that my starting point was not clear from the beginning and that it couldn't stand because I wasn't clear about it from the very beginning.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see/realize that my relationship with X was based on manipulation/fear from the very beginning and so had to fall/end as the starting point was not equality.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I have allowed myself to compromise myself through fear and allowed myself to be manipulated in my relationships and so I must delete all old patterns and recreate my relationships, so that I can start from the beginning and create a clear starting point that I can stand as in self-honesty.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize and admit to myself that I am not ready to make an agreement with X because I fear loosing my safety/security/comfort within the system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame myself and feel guilty because I didn't have a clear starting point from the very beginning of my relationship with X, so it had to fall as it could never stand.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to make an agreement with someone, instead of realizing that I have to make an effective agreement with self.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to stop blaming me and feeling guilty for what I did by not having a clear starting point.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to stop blaming me for my mistakes, instead I forgive myself for what I did and I allow myself to have a clean start within my agreement with self.

2012 - Opinions, beliefs, judgments

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of being self-honest with self and also with other people.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of self-judgment and other people's judgment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that it is important what other people think, instead of realizing that thoughts, opinions and beliefs are not real and of no value.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel threatened when being self-honest with self or/and other people.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I can get hurt when being self-honest with self and/or other people.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that other people's judgments and blaming have something to do with me, with who I am, instead of realizing that judgments and blame are not real because they are all of the mind and are thus of no value.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am responsible for other people's judgments and blame, instead of realizing that I am only responsible for my own and that I can not stop other people's judgments and blame, they have to stop them themselves and I can only show them how by example.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I have to control other people's judgments and blaming towards me so that they will think nice of me, instead of realizing that I cannot control others and what they think and that caring for such thing is a waste of time and energy because opinions, judgments, blame and beliefs are of the mind and are not real and therefore of no value whatsoever.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am 'less than' when other people judge or blame me, instead of realizing that this is just a belief/perception I have created for myself be. When and as I see myself believing/perceiving myself as 'less than' when being judged or blamed by another - I stop and I breathe. I understand that there is no use of blaming and judging myself and that others judgments and blame towards me are point that they have to take responsibility for and stop and I can only help them by being an example.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be proud of myself and to believe that pride raises my value, instead of realizing that I am only trying to hide my feeling of 'less than' through pride where I search for points I can be proud of. I realize that this is a mind polarity game of trying to be 'more than' and avoiding the feeling of 'less than', instead of just stopping and being equal with all here. When and as I see myself allowing pride or the feeling of 'more than' or 'less than' - I stop, I breathe. Instead I realize the uselessness of these beliefs and feelings and I direct myself here in the breath as an equal.

2012 - Anger, spite, blame reactions

Taking self-responsibility for my reactions when dealing with conflict situations:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry and to react in spite when someone threatens me and blackmails me (with money). When and as I see myself getting angry and spiteful when someone threatens me and blackmails me (with money) – I stop and I breathe. I do not accept and allow myself to get angry and spiteful when someone threatens me and blackmails me (with money), instead I make sure that I am clear of all reactions and I direct the situation in a way that is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I must defend myself at all costs when someone blames, reacts or is angry with me, instead of breathing and stopping all reactions until I am clear within myself before I speak. When and as I see myself believing that I must defend myself from someone's reaction of blame and anger – I stop and I breathe. I do not accept and allow myself to go into defense and to believe that I must defend my position against the attack, instead I make sure that I am clear of any reactions within myself before I speak and I direct myself in common sense and as an example of taking responsibility for self and others in a way that is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to speak in anger and spite instead of stopping myself and making sure that I am clear from any reactions before I speak. When and as I see myself being angry, spiteful, emotional before I speak – I stop and I breathe. I do not accept and allow myself to react and speak out of anger, spite or energetic emotion. Instead I breathe and I say out loud that I am in an energetic emotion and that I will not speak until I make sure that I am clear of all reactions within myself and I direct myself with breathing to stop all reactions and emotions before I speak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid to say out loud that I am in an energetic reaction and that I will not participate in energetic games and will not communicate until I make sure that I am clear from all energetic reactions and emotions. When and as I see myself fearing to say out loud that I am in an energetic reaction / emotion – I stop and I breathe. I do not accept and allow myself to compromise myself by fearing to speak out loud about my reactions / emotions. Instead I breathe and I stop and break the fear pattern by whistling and/or by snapping my fingers and I speak out loud that I am in and energetic reaction / emotion and will not speak until I make sure that I am clear of any energetic reactions/emotions/anger/spite within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react in anger and spite when someone is spiteful towards me and makes spiteful, blaming comments towards me. When and as I see myself going into a reaction, anger and spite towards someone that makes spiteful, blaming comments – I stop and I breathe. I do not accept and allow myself to react in spite and anger when someone makes spiteful comments towards me. Instead I breathe and I direct myself to make sure that I have no energetic reactions or emotions within me before I speak to direct the situation in a way that is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame others when they blame me. I realize that this will only make the conflict bigger and will not support anyone. When and as I see myself blaming others when they blame me - I stop, I breathe. Instead I do not blame others and I take points back to myself and I reflect them in self-honesty and commit myself to write out the points that come up.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame myself and take onto myself the blame of others when others blame me. I realize that other's blame is not my own and that I have to focus on my own points of blame and look self-honestly at myself where do I still blame myself. When and as I see myself blaming myself and taking onto myself the blame of others - I stop, I breathe. Instead I look at myself in self-honesty where do I still blame and judge myself and I commit myself to write out the self-blame and self-judgment until it is gone.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry and react with anger when others blame me. I realize that this will only make the conflict worse and will not assist anyone. When and as I see myself getting/being angry and reacting when someone blames me - I stop, I breathe. Instead I re-do my self-forgiveness statements on blame/anger/reactions and stop myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to act in self-interest and not always also consider others and put myself into others shoes. I realize that by doing so I accept and allow abuse to happen as I only see my self-interest and don't consider others. When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to act in self-interest where I do not also equally consider others - I stop, I breathe. Instead I look self-honestly at what is the origin of my self interest and I commit myself to write out and correct the point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of angry, reactive and violent people, to fear that they will hurt me and that I am responsible for their anger, reactions and violence. I realize that I must first reflect myself in self-honesty and make sure that I do not react and fear when interacting/speaking with others because by doing so I accept and allow these reactions to exist. When and as I see myself being afraid of angry, reactive and violent people and to fear that they will hurt me and that I am responsible for their anger, reactions and violence - I stop, I breathe. Instead I realize that I must firstly stop my own fears, anger and reactions and make sure that I do not react when speaking with others and that I do not fear conflict situations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame myself for wanting to end the energetic agreement/relationship with X and not live with her anymore. I realize that all energetic relationships must stop and that I made my decision in order to stop the energetic relationship X and I created between ourselves. When and as I see myself blaming myself for wanting to end the agreement/relationship with X  and don't live with her anymore - I stop, I breathe. Instead I focus on my points and I commit myself to write out in self-honesty the points that come up in my interaction with others.

2012 - Energetic reactions

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with energetic emotions / feelings when talking / interacting with other people and then to blame them for my self-created energetic emotional / feeling reactions. When and as I see myself reacting in emotions / feelings - I stop and I breathe. I do not accept and allow myself to talk / interact with people out of emotional / feeling reactions, I do not accept and allow myself to blame others for my emotional / feeling reactions that I have created within myself. Instead, I take self responsibility and I commit myself to stop all energetic reactions within me through breathing and only speak and interact with people when I am completely clear and stable within myself and I direct myself according with the principle of what is practically best for all in common sense where I treat another as I would like to be treated myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to engage and participate in energetic fights / arguments with other people where I follow energetic feeling / emotions and try to win at all costs. When and as I see myself going into / participating within an energetic fight / argument with others - I stop and I breathe. I do no accept and allow myself to go into / participate within an energetic arguments / fights with others. Instead I commit myself to expose the situation in self-honesty for what it is and I stand clear within my decision of stopping all energetic games and not participating in them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with anger when someone doesn't agree with me. I do not accept and allow myself to react in anger when someone doesn't agree with me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear other people's reactions and conflict when I talk and interact with them. I do not accept and allow myself to fear other people's reactions and conflict, instead I direct myself here in the breath.

2012 - Sexual expression

We all have ideas about sex, like how should it be/look like and who to have it with etc. with which we limit ourselves through feelings/emotions and self-judgments. We define ourselves through it and place special value to it as if it is something supernatural and mystical while in fact it is just another way to express self in the physical, like playing a sport or massaging someone etc., the only big problem is that we allow ourselves to become completely possessed by sexual energies and desires where we become complete robots trying to get the energetic release instead of simply being here without all the self-created energies and expressing self in self-direction with another. If we express ourselves within sex without any judgments, anticipations, desires etc., we simply enjoy ourselves in the physical with another and that's all there is to it. Because self-honestly, seeing sex only as putting ones dick into someones vagina and getting an orgasm is self-abuse and self-limitation through ones own created desires/addictions to sexual energies. Sex in self-expression can be so much more, a real expression of self as life here, with no judgments/desires/anticipations. I've started to remove the layers of my preprogrammed mind patterns through which I limited myself within sex and sexual expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want/need/desire to associate/define/value myself with/through my partner/the person I had sex with, instead of realizing that having sex does not define me as who I am as life here in oneness and equality.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as 'easy'/'less than' for having sex with someone I don't have special feelings/attraction towards.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that having sex with someone I don't have special feelings/attraction towards is wrong/inappropriate/shameful/stupid and to judge myself for it, instead of realizing that I am establishing a point of self direction where I do not accept and allow myself to be controlled by my energetic desires and beliefs of love/attraction.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of other people judging me/rejecting me because I had sex with someone I have no attraction/special feelings towards, instead of realizing that other people's reactions do not define me because they just represent their reactions which they haven't dealt with yet.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that a person who I have/had sex with is/should be special and 'more than' others'.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be ashamed to tell other people who I have/had sex with and to fear that others will reject me because of their judgment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of premature ejaculation.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself to others and blame myself as 'less than' if I don't last as long as someone else would.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive that women wish for sex to last long.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define/perceive slow penetration as better/more passionate than fast penetration.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define/perceive sex as a passionate act, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach a definition of passion onto physical touching another human being/male and within that make it more than other physical acts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of creating mindfucks and confusion within other people, if I dare to be honest with them.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of my parents judgments and disapproval of the people that I have sex with.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel the need to present a presentable female to my parents and get their approval..
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about what other people think about me. Whenever I see myself worrying about how other people perceive/see me, I stop, I breathe, I do not allow myself to influence myself through the eyes of others

2012 - War = crime against Life

Any and all wars are unacceptable and anyone who promotes it should be immediately assisted to realize this and stop the ego-centric self-deception and abuse. Anyone that promotes, justifies and supports war and abuse must be removed from all and any kind of position of power as he/she is incapable of common sense and doing what is Best for All Life.

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Any kind of war represents a complete fail of all human beings to recognize all Life as Self in Oneness and Equality. When there is a war, who benefits? Who makes more money, who gets more control? Those who kill each other or those who want others to kill each other? People allow themselves to be deceived into believing that they are fighting for a 'good cause', for 'freedom', for a better future, for what is best for them and their country... This is always a complete, utter self-deceptive bullshit. No war/violence/killing can ever be best for all because it is always based on separation and self-deception.

All we hear lately is the 'CONflict' between Iran and USA/NATO and how it all looks like there is going to be another war, possibly world war 3. The brainwash apparatus (media), controlled by those with basically unlimited money supply, generated and handed over to them through the exploitation of the economic slaves of capitalism, feeds us - the undereducated/dumbed down people - with fears and tons of justifications for war and why war is supposedly OK and even necessary as if there is apparently no other way. They portray the 'bad guys' as selfish and unwilling to participate instead of looking into the mirror. Through our brainwash media we lie directly and continuously right into our faces about the situation of Iran for example, or anything else for that matter. We simply accept and allow ourselves to be deceived and manipulated towards self-destruction because obviously, most of the people still do not realize and do not want to face the fact that we are all self-responsible for what we have accepted and allowed to exist within ourselves and this world, because whatever we see in the world is just an outflow of what we accept and allow withing ourselves.

If we don't want to suffer the consequences of self-created hell, then we have to always live according to what is Best for All. And if we want to stop all wars, we have to stop the war within ourselves first. We have to stop all the self-accepted and allowed judgments, fears, reactions, anger ... which we all create in separation with/among ourselves and what is here, through the illusions of our minds.

Thus we are self-responsible to not accept and allow any separation to exist within/between ourselves.We have to realize that we are all one and equal and this can only be done by physically/practically walking the principle of what is Best for All. To make it clearer, in the example of war/violence/killing I will always direct myself in the way that will stop it and I will never accept and allow anything that promotes it. I will speak out and expose the self-deception and abuse of Life that exists within war/violence/killing. I will put myself in the shoes of others and I will care for All Life Equally because we are all One.

We tend to look away when we see abuse and suffering just because it is not happening to us and this shows how completely separated we are from self = from what is here. All that exists here, even if it is on the other side of the world, is here because every one of us accepts and allows it to exist within ourselves. As long as there is war, violence, killing or any other abuse of Life then we know that it is here because we all accept and allow it. Especially when we don't (want to) care/notice.

Every one of us must stop. Stop everything that we have accepted and allowed as ourselves because all is self-deception and self-abuse. And as we stop in self-honesty and self-forgiveness, we have to correct ourselves and learn to always direct ourselves by the principle of what is Best for All Life in Oneness and Equality. Then we can live in piece and dignity within/among ourselves and all that is here. Doing anything else will always result in the consequence of suffering and self-abuse. Doing anything else can only create pain and eternal, self-created damnation. No one will save us, no one will save you. We all have to do it ourselves for self and for all that is here in oneness and equality or we shall be damned for eternity because even death won't end the suffering. No one can run away and hide, we all have to face what we have accepted and allowed within ourselves. The longer we postpone, the longer and stronger will be the suffering. Until we start doing what is Best for All in Oneness and Equality.

It is the self-responsibility of every one of us to speak out and not accept and allow any kind of war or any other abuse of Life in any way. We have to stand as practical examples of how to always live in a way that is Best for All and work together to bring about such practical solutions (like an Equal Money System).

2012 - Self-Forgiveness on defining self through others

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself through others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to belief that I need others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I alone am incomplete.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise and sabotage myself with the idea of loneliness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as anything other than Life  here in oneness and equality.
I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to see and realize the deception of my own and other people's special relationships.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire/want to be a special winner with special attention.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I need any kind of attention.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be at-tension, instead of attending myself and all that is here equally.
I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to be all-one.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear to be all-one.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise and sabotage myself with the fear/feelings/emotions of 'aloneness'.