Day 243 - Offended reaction and some other points

My previous blog is in Slovene.

Today I reacted with offendedness when X said to me that I am a kind of a person that would let people drown just because I am feeling OK/not affected. Thus I will first look at the reaction.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to react with feeling offended when X said that I would let people drown just because I am feeling OK/not affected.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to take it personally and hate/despise X for saying that basically I am a bad person.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to judge the fact of letting someone drown/get harmed or killed when one could do something about it as bad/shameful, instead of realizing that such judgment is not necessary as it does not change anything, I just create an emotional reaction with it inside myself and so limit myself with a biased view of reality.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to take it personal and feel offended because I perceived that X really meant what X was saying because X was emotional.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive that someone really means something when one is emotional, especially angry, and to think/believe/perceive that someone doesn't really mean something and is just joking when someone is laughing and or saying "I'm just joking" and so to, based on this judgment, either take what someone is saying seriously and/or personally or not. I realize and understand that even and especially when someone is emotional, what one is saying is only an outflow of what is going on within this person's mind and so the excuse that I have to take what someone is saying to me personally and feel offended is not a valid excuse for my emotional reaction of offendedness. When and as I see someone is saying something to me with an angry voice or some other emotions - I stop and breathe. I realize and understand that I am creating/being the problem as long as I react to what someone is saying (to me) while being angry/emotional and that there is no valid reason or purpose for me to react with offendedness or any other emotion/feeling in such moments. Thus I commit myself to always make sure that I do not react with offendedness or any other emotions to someone that is saying something (to me) while being angry/emotional

Other points I see in relation to the event:

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to react with resistance and defiance towards X when X said with a demanding and bossy voice that I have to do something for X while X was emotional. When and as I see myself reacting with resistance and defiance towards someone when one is demanding something with a bossy voice that I have to do something for him/her - I stop and breathe.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive that I am inferior to someone and a slave when someone demands from me with a bossy voice that I do something for someone. I realize and understand that there is no valid reason/purpose for me to think/believe/perceive that I am being inferior and a slave when someone demands something from me with a bossy voice and I do it. I realize and understand that people often react with emotions and consequently express with demands using a bossy voice and that I can still in such situation do what someone is emotionally demanding, when I see that it is common sense and/or that it will help to stabilize the situation without causing additional unnecessary reactions, and not take it personally and not feel inferior while doing it as I understand that I am with this not actually accepting me as being subordinate/inferior to that person, but simply doing what is best in that situation to stabilize it and not cause more unnecessary reactions.

Next I will look at another point that is not directly related to the upper ones:

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to in every moment of breath see/realize/understand that every animal and plant, no matter how big or small, is still a living being and as such completely equal to me and every other living being. When and as I see myself disregarding and animal/plant as less important than me or any other living being - I stop and breathe. I realize and understand that I am within that movement separating myself from Life and making myself superior, thus accepting and allowing abuse of Life, myself as Life, because I gave more importance to my thoughts as energy, which is the opposite of Life because the energy created as/within separation is ignorance and consumption of Life for no other reason than selfishness. Thus I commit myself to always make sure that I see/understand in every moment of breath that every animal and plant and living being, no matter how big or small, is equal to me as Life and all other living beings and so it is all me as Life here, thus it only makes sense that I respect and support all Life equally and not disregard or ignore it in any way and make sure that I treat all Life the way I would like to be treated and supported in the place of another living being.

Day 240 - Self-trust without experience

Previous blog is in Slovene.

I noticed how I am connecting self-trust with having experience, with having a point of reference somewhere in my mind where I can say: I know I can do that no problem because I did it before. So when I cannot find such a point, I lose self-trust, I start to doubt myself and fear that I will fail, that I will not be able to do it. And so the past memories come up of where I experienced myself as a failure and a disappointment and so this becomes a big point of self-sabotage.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define self-trust as having the knowing that I already did something with no problems in the past and so using that as a point of self-certainty that I don't have to fear anything now, because I know that I can trust myself to do it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into fear, uncertainty and self-doubt in relation to doing something (new) when I cannot find a reference point in my mind of knowing that I already did a similar point successfully in the past. When and as I see myself looking for a reference point of experience on which I would base my self-trust in being able to do something now - I stop and breathe. I realize and understand that I am with this connecting self-trust with experience, which is not necessary as I will only create self-doubt and fear when I cannot find such a point within myself. Thus I commit myself to stop searching for a point of experience when I intend to do/am doing something I haven't done before.

Instead I redefine the point of self-trust as:
Self-movement within the understanding that I am always able to direct myself most effectively when I am simply aware of my breath and the physical situation around me and the goal that I want to achieve, without thinking about all the past experiences I have or don't have. And so I always have the ability to direct and correct myself in the moment as it is most appropriate in order to achieve the goal I set for myself and within this know and understand that there is no real failure in trying to achieve a goal, because I simply insist on achieving it until I do and learn and become more effective while I work on it.

My Declaration of Principle: 19. Being The Change That All Can See

The 19th Principle I am committing myself to live by is the realization that I must purify my thoughts, words and deeds – that my inner becomes my outer, so I bring into creation me as heaven into earth, realising it is not enough to ‘see the change / be the change’ – for change to become REAL it must be a constant, consistent living of me through the words I speak and the actions I live visible and noticeable to all in every moment of breath.

It is important to be the change, because no one will take you seriously if you take a smoke while explaining how harmful and unnecessary it is. And within this it is obviously not enough to just change self and try to avoid the world at the same time. Also if we change to stop smoking for a day or two and then continue, that's also not a self-honest lasting change. Of course smoking is the last of our problems on this world. The biggest problem is our ignorance and egoism, how we are addicted to our feelings and emotions and how we don't care about making sure that we are All well nourished and safe, before we do anything else.

Thus, in order to really change the society we must firstly change ourselves in a way where we a deliberately standing as the visible change that others can see, so that they can realize that it is not impossible and not that hard as it seems at first and so others can ask us how did we do it and why and what did we realize and so we make the change easier for others as well.

This is why we also write public blogs and do videos, so that we can reach as many people as possible, showing how we can all help ourselves to stop creating and participating in everything that we limit ourselves with and so stop all abuse and actually create a Dignified Life for All on earth.

Follow this link to see the full list of principles I am committing myself to live by.

My Declaration of Principle: 18. I am the Change I Want to See in the World

The 18th Principle I am committing myself to live by is the realization that I am the change I want to see in me and my world – to bring heaven to earth is to bring into being, into living the LIVING PROOF of a PRACTICAL HEAVEN that can be seen and heard in our actions and words. We are the Living Heaven that must come into creation in this living world.

In practice this means that I stop creating excuses and justifications for why I am the way I am and why I am not always talking and doing in the way that is best for all. It means that I look at the time I have in a day and see what are the specific activities that I can do in order to move myself and help others move themselves in alignment with the Principle of what is Best for All and towards a society in which all abuse of Life will be prevented and we will all have a guaranteed Dignified Life, because we will guarantee it to each other. And this also means that at the end of the day I introspect myself and my day and see where did I postpone something that must be done, where did I not move myself in alignment with the Principle and how I can correct and improve my application in the next day.

In terms of applying some self-forgiveness in relation to this topic, here are some examples to get one started:

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that I must be the change I want to see in the world.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to wish/want/desire to only care for my own self-interest. When and as I see myself wishing/wanting/desiring to only care for my own self-interest - I stop and breathe. I realize and understand that I am with this only creating more abuse and imprison myself more within a society that is ignorant and so create more and more suffering every day. Thus I commit myself to always make sure that I do not allow myself to be ignorant and to consider all Life equally and move myself towards solution of the Living Income Guaranteed proposal as the best solution I know for humanity, so that we can all start supporting each other instead of abusing each other.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that I must be willing to let go of all those parts of myself that are selfish, so that I can be the change I know is possible in this world because I know I can change myself as I have proven this to myself many times before in my life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that I am using my fear as an excuse not to change and to postpone my change as if I don't know how to overcome the fears and resistances, trying to convince myself that it is in fact so, while I know very well that I can think whatever I want to think and so I can stop thinking about fear and stop coming up with excuses and start moving myself and using my mind to create practical solutions, instead of letting my thoughts run in my head as if I am their slave. Thus I commit myself not to be the slave of my fears, my resistances and my thoughts as I see that this is just an excuse that I create so that I would not have to stand responsible for what I do. I commit myself to apply the tools of breathing, self-forgiveness and to use my mind to support myself and others to come up with solutions for my practical change, for our practical change, according to the Principle of: do not do (ignore) others as you would not want to be done onto (ignored) in their place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use and abuse excises over and over again, waiting for others, waiting for myself as if I am not the one creating myself and deciding who I am and what I will do in every moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in excuses as if all I have to do is to come up with an excuse and then suddenly everything will be OK the way it is, not realizing that nothing can ever be excused because excuses do not change anything, thus I must correct and change all abuse that has been allowed and is still allowed because of all the excuses that I come up with.

I see the solution for all the excuses that make abuse of Life possible: it is for me to say stop to all excuses as I see/realize and understand that I can never change and will never change anything as long as I keep creating excuses. I cannot be excused for not standing up for what is Best for All Life. I cannot be excused for being ignorant. I cannot be excused for coming up with excuses of why it is OK that we accept and allow abuse in this world. Excuses make us slaves to our own minds and this is no acceptable. Abuse is not acceptable, ignorance and selfishness is not acceptable, postponement is not acceptable. I am not acceptable as long as I do not do everything I can self-honestly do in every breath to be the best living practical example of what is Best for All Life so that we can create heaven on earth as soon as possible, starting with the implementation of the life supporting society as proposed in the Living Income Guaranteed proposal.

Follow this link to see the full list of principles I am committing myself to live by.

My Declaration of Principle: 17. Standing as a Living Example

The 17th Principle I am committing myself to live by is this: I must in my thoughts, words and deeds – but most importantly in my living actions, become a living example for others in my world that is noticeable and visible when it comes to the potential of a person to change themselves and so change their world. So that more people can realize how we can change this world, by standing united in our self change within the principle of what is best for all to bring heaven to earth.

As I observe myself in self-honesty, I see where I am still being selfish and ignorant and so I change myself by directing myself towards a changed behavior, that will be supportive for all. There are a lot of small moments within which we can all stand as examples to how we can be the change through which we will bring and create a dignified Life for all. A lot of times this simply means that I share my realization about how and why I changed myself and how we can change the way we consider and approach problems by taking self-responsibility. A lot of times I observe people talking and I notice how they express certain beliefs and mind patterns that lead to dead ends, where everyone speaks their mind, but nothing changes in the end. Thus I stand as an example by bringing up a practical solution that is based on the Principle what is Best for All. Or I help people explore where the root of the problem is in order to help them see where the change is needed. But this is just talking. I also constantly push myself to work on things that have to be done in order to actually bring a lasting change to the world. For example I create blogs and vlogs and share and rate the self-supportive blogs that other share. I also make sure that I put the money I have to spare into projects that will help us create a better world. Projects that I am personally involved in so that I can actually see if the effect if actually addressing the root of the problems we have as a society. I also started to align my career with education, so that I will be able to help others, especially children, to become effective, reasonable and emotionally stable self-leaders that will not succumb to greed and ignorance. I am also participating in political parties and groups to connect with people in politic I can work with to bring a lasting change that is Best for All. I have also wrote a statute for a new political party, if all others fail, where we will be able to guarantee that people working within the party will only implement solutions that are Best for All and that create and secure a Dignified Life for all. There are so many ways for all of us to stand as examples to all the problems that we have and face on earth. The only problems is, WE have to be the ones who CHANGE OURSELVES. No one else will come and save us from our own greed, selfishness and ignorance. I can see I am far from being a perfect example for others. I actually see myself as far too lazy still, thus my goal is to make sure that I expand myself and my effectiveness and give my all every day to make sure that I do all that I can to create a world where a Dignified Life is guaranteed for All and where all abuse is prevented.

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My Declaration of Principle: 16. Being Equally Responsible for All

The 16th Principle I am committing myself to live by comes from the realisation that by the virtue of me being in this world – my responsibility does not only extend to my own Mind / my own Life, but to the minds and lives of everything and everyone of this earth and so my commitment is to extend this awareness to all of humanity to work together and live together to make this world heaven on earth for ourselves and the generations to come.

Being equally responsible for all come from the realization that we are all part of the same one reality. This means that whatever we do individually and also collectively, we can never escape the consequences of our actions, not even after we die. Lets say that we have no idea about what happens after we die. This means that the chances that we either no longer exist or still exist in another form after we die are 50/50. Now regardless of this, we know that the consequences that we left behind on Earth are still existing even after we die. Would you rather gamble and hope you stop existing after you die, or would you rather make sure that how you live right now is aligned with what is Best for All? The last option is obviously common sense here and if I can offer a suggestion, I would definitely suggest everyone to take this question really seriously and make an informed decision about how you want to live your life, because everyone only really gets one chance to show who one really is as life here on earth.

Living according to this realization means that I in practice share realisations and solutions with others and that my primary goal in creating relationships with other people is to stand as an example of what is best for all and help others to see the common sense and support them with their own alignment with the Principle: do not ignore and do onto others as you would not want to be ignored or done onto you in their place. This also includes daily writing and sharing on the internet and working towards bringing people together under the one Principle that is Best for All.

The main obstacle in all this is of course our own mind consciousness system with thoughts, mind constructs, feelings, emotions and habitual patterns, that is quite extensive and requires from each one to walk the process of self-honest self-correction, through observing self, writing and applying the correction. This is the process where we all have to support each other and make sure that we stay self-honest and constant in applying ourselves every day until it becomes our habit to do what is Best for All in our every breath. And we also have to change the system in a way that we can ensure to all a Dignified Life. So, lots of work to do! Chop, chop!

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My Declaration of Principle: 15. Sex as Self Expression

Previous blog is in Slovene.

The 15th Principle I am committing myself to live by is the principle of Sex as Self Expression – where sex is an united expression between individuals in honour, respect, consideration and regard of each other as equals, two physical bodies uniting in equality and oneness – a merging of two equals as one physically.

I practice this by removing (with self-forgiveness) any energetic sexual desires that I might have towards sex and my partner, like wanting to have sex in specific sexual positions or judging my partner according to appearance. I practice not letting myself be directed with the desire for sex and to not have an orgasm as a starting point or goal of sex. Instead I practice breathing and focusing on the physical touch, where I explore physical sensations and learn about what my partner finds pleasurable and what I find pleasurable from the sense of physical touch.

I have noticed how I used to use a lot of imagination during sex, where I would imagine or look for certain scenes or poses that would arouse me in order to get the sexual arousal energy more intense, so that my orgasm would be strong. But within that I mostly forgot about enjoying the physical touch itself, because it was all about the energy arousal and pictures. Now I practice to slow down and breathe and observe my thoughts and then I apply self-forgiveness when I see any feelings/emotions or judgements and other thought come up within me as with this I only keep myself away from fully enjoying the physical.

If we look at the porn industry today and how sex is portrayed in such movies, it is mostly very harsh and abusive, especially towards women. The pure fact that someone would watch por in order to masturbate and get sexually aroused shows that we are not with our bodies where we would consider physical touch, instead we consider pictures that we judge and define as arousing and then our only goal is to get as much energy going on as possible before the orgasmic release, mostly not even aware that we abuse our bodies for it, because within that energy we do not even consider if what we do is pleasant for our bodies. We just consider if it is pleasant for our energetic mind-fuck. As a consequence of this, a lot of people don't even know how to explore the physical sensations in a supportive and equal way when having sex with a partner. Sex is not about fulfilling one's desires, it is not about doing what you saw in a porn movie, it is not about having an ultimate energetical orgasmic tantrical comsic experience. Sex is about exploring how to best support your partner and yourself through physical equality and expression in an enjoying way through which a new human being can be conceived when appropriate. Everything else in sex is just a selfish mind delusion.

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